sigh sigh sigh.. haven blogged since saturday.. can't b bothered to le.. i'll just talk about today la.. =( sigh.. a reali bad morning to begin with this morning.. cos i woke up late.. (have been last friday but the other two were bcos the bus was late!) sigh.. aniwae.. i woke up late..then rushed lo.. then actualli asked my dad to fetch.. but he take his own sweet time to wash up.. so i just walked out n took caught a bus.. ya.. was on 854.. n was contemplating if i should drop somewhere at ubi to take a cab.. n i did.. but the cab nv came.. another 854 came so i hopped onto it lo.. sian.. waste time la.. sigh.. could have got to school on time if i dropped at 229 stop to cab.. sigh.. yeah.. no choice la.. so waited for 229 to come since i was already late.. din wana waste money.. yea.. then met esther on the bus.. haha.. then mrs chua called me when i was on the bus.. sigh.. then she scold me lo.. sae why i alwaya late.. :( sigh.. then i said sorry la.. like i want to wake up late like that:( sian.. then reached school le.. din go for GP lesson.. din have the mood for Gp la.. sian.. then chem remedial was next.. went there n passed mrs chua my verification slip for A levels exam.. then she sae sae sae.. then said that she called my mum to complain le.. aiya.. wat can i do right.. i just said ok lo.. sian.. then my mum called me during lesson.. i called her back after that.. then she was telling me wat mrs chua said lo.. then mrs chua told her i skipped lesson on friday.. then told her that my chem not veh good.. then say if i dun do well, might kick me out of tj.. sian.. then ask my mum to wake me up at 6am.. crap.. sian! sigh then my mum complain that i always chat online.. well it's true but wat u wan me to do? i dun haf many forms of entertainment leh.. n she wants me in bed by 11pm.. this is madness can.. please la.. JC life.. all the workload.. where got pple sleep at 11pm.. it's CRAP LA! well.. after i put down the phone, i was already in tears.. sian.. sigh.. n saw mrs ho on the way. then she was asking me n esther y we nv go for GP lesson.. tink she got a shock when she saw me crying.. sian.. then i ran to the toilet.. washed up.. then went to the canteen to put down our bags.. me n cheryl went to guard house to collect her verification slip.. then went back to canteen.. she bought food to eat then we sat down.. yup.. i was msging brother.. then while msging. i was like tearing.. sigh.. tink alot pple saw:( sigh.. dunno la.. tink i was quite seh te whole day.. n like acted as though nothing happened.. but i'm actualli quite affected inside la.. i dunno wat exactly.. but i wasn't feeling good obviously.. yeah.. sian.. sigh.. ya la.. the whole day wasn't good la.. it's the worst day in my life in tj so far.. sian.. dunno la.. i'm tired of school.. very.. someone please save me.. :(
it seems so out of reach.. time is racing.. i'm trying my best.. chasing.. but it nv seems to draw near.. instead.. the goal.. seem to b floating.. further n further away.. out of reach.. i'm tired of chasing.. tinking of letting it go.. but i dun have a choice.. for i've already came thus far.. Lord.. Sweedy is realli tired.. she knows she has been depending on herself too much.. n she has not been listening to u.. she is lost.. like a sheep without a shepard.. guide her Lord.. before she strays too far away.. that's wat she asks of You.. speak to her ears.. hold her hands.. carry her.. teach her to love you..
