wah.. after soo longg.. i finally settled my prob with janice.. i almost cried in front of the computer.. :( but i din la.. yeah.. i saw her online today.. then was contemplating if i should talk to her.. wanted to ask her if she's been talking to ron.. ya.. n so i did.. she said she did n she said ron was ok.. well.. ya.. so we started talking.. n i was convinced that ron was ok lo.. then i was like veh ke qi.. thanked her for listening to me.. then i apologised about wat heppened in the past.. yeah.. then she was like.. can we patch up.. well well.. i tink.. it's all pride in the past.. whenever i saw her.. i realli wanted to give her a nice smile:) but.. i never did.. realli never did.. i pretended i never saw her.. well.. but i'm realli glad things are fine now..
on the other hand.. sometimes.. i feel realli hurt? i dunno if hurt is the word.. but ya.. when i have find out about the condition of a fren from other frens.. i dunno.. it's not once or twice that such things have happened to me.. but.. i realli feel like crying too.. sometimes.. it makes me wonder.. even friends which i realli consider pple who are closest to me.. friends whom i consider good or even best frens.. when u try to find out things from them.. all they say is.. i'm ok.. or.. nothing la.. alright.. i mean.. when u're not ur own self.. u're obviously not ok ma..
i realli hate this kind of environment.. i guess.. mayb it's just me.. pple dun tink information is safe with me.. or.. they're just not comfortable with sharing with me.. i dunno.. well.. if that's the case.. i can't do anithing but just feel sad. i've failed as a friend i guess.. dun call me a friend then.. sigh..
watever it is.. "tears are precious.. dun waste them" i'll remember this phrase always.. thanks brother..
