Sunday, February 26, 2006
*.* wat is this?? my fault?? *.*
sian.. slept at 1+ this morning.. then woke up at 9+.. sigh.. if onli it was for church service.. oh well.. it wun b soon i guess.. aniwae.. today's aunt's birthday.. then she decided to treat us to macs.. so we all wake up n went macs for breakfast lo.. ya.. tehn i walked home from there.. my siblings went for tuition.. yeah.. came home did my tutorials.. then vaccuumed(correct spelling? i dunno) the floor.. ya.. my mum called.. ask me to call my dad to ask him to pick up my siblings when she asked me to do the same thing in the morning to ask him NOT to pick up my siblings.. then after a while, she called me again to tell my dad no need again.. then my dad was like why keep chainging.. in an irritated tone.. i was like.. it's my fault? sian la.. everytime the two of them quarrel, i'm the one in trouble.. wat crap.. my mum went to pick them up from tuition then bought chicken rice for lunch.. ya.. then we got everything done then left the house.. my mum ASKED ME to ask my dad to pick us up at my grandma's place at 7pm.. but my aunt left her car with us so my mum drove to grandma's palce n drove back too.. n we left at like 630.. so my dad? up till now, he hasn't called to ask if we're still there so i assume that he has clean forgotten about fetching us from grandma's hosue.. well that's my dad for u.. if u still dunno wat kinda person he is.. just someone who can't realli b bothered about the family.. ya.. n my mu jus called me.. i'm already at home.. he asked me if my dad called to ask if we're still at grandma's plcae.. apparently no.. then she was like.. WAT TIME U TOLD HIM TO COME?? then i told her 7.. then she was like.. HOW COME HE HAVEN CALL? excuse me.. am i my father? do u tink i noe where exactly he is? is it my fault that he hasn't called? so i guess.. as the eldest.. EVERYTHING is my fau;t lo.. well wat can i do? i talk back they say that i'm getting rebellious.. i dunno.. wat kinda parents? have they ever given a thought to how i feel? and the same goes for my religion.. i already chose to believe in Christianty.. n i wana go to church.. i'm not allowed.. has she ever wondered.. isn't it better to just let me go attend service.. to let me believe in wat i wana believe in? wun that make life so much better n relationship less tense than it is now? why?? y can't pple tink more rationally? i dunno.. i noe i'm not rational all the time too.. i guess.. that's human huh? wat can i do? i dunno.. mayb it's all my fault.. well perhaps..
I needed Jesus @ | 7:22:00 PM
