*.* **stars in the rainbow.. will we ever see this??** *.*
trying to pack things up.. put them behind n move on.. but they never seem to want to leave me alone.. this entry is gonna b a highly personal entry.. please ah.. if u're just here to see see or for fun.. please leave.. it's not worth ur time alright.. aniwae.. yeah.. it realli makes me wonder.. wat can realli cause a relationship/friendship to like.. cause two pple to become like total strangers.. well.. sometimes.. i tink it's my fault.. i try hard to change.. tink it's too late.. things get worse than ever.. wat can i do? i can onli sae.. sweedy, learn from ur mistakes.. well these mistakes realli do hurt a great bit.. but.. well.. all i can do.. is just sit there.. n watch u in a conversation with others.. but can nv come up with things to talk to u about.. n i guess.. that's how u feel too.. well.. i dunno wat i can do to make things better.. letting go isn't easy.. i dunno if i haf totalli.. i dunno.. but i realli hope everything will gt back.. to wat it is like at the beginning.. hilda gave sweedy three options.. wait.. throw.. tell.. sweedy chose to wait.. however u're gonna interpret it.. i'm not going to explain further.. i'm gonna leave it here as it is.. aniwae.. went cartel in the morning.. at serangoon gardens.. met yan hui first then cabbed down.. n i haven pay her money!! haha.. ya.. miss ho, michelle ng n goh, vivien n wina were there as well.. miss ho's treat.. feel so bad cos i'm not even part of the sec two camp com.. haha.. yeah.. aniwae.. went back to school to take the bus to MGS.. had A&D rehearsal.. it seemed like eternity la.. sigh.. so tiring.. n i'm blacker now!! :( hahaha. so terrible!! pple call me blackie again!:( haha.. yeah.. then went to church for BS after the practise.. :) feels good to be at church:) see my sister:) haha.. n my frens:) hees. haha ya.. had BS.. then ethel waited.. but i tink probably more for her sis la.. aniwae.. ya.. then i left after BS with niujin n she was talking rubbish all the way.. haha.. we had a good talk though.. RITE? Mr REDD!! haha.. :) yeap.. haha.. then reached home le.. found out something which sturck me quite badly from a fren.. well.. i dunno wat to do with it.. God.. settle this please.. dun let it drag on ani longer.. i'm getting sick n tired of this whole thing.. realli tired.. i just pray for the strength.. for the discipline.. to carry on n concentrate one my walk with u:) nothing else.. u'll b my first love.. :)
I needed Jesus @ | 10:38:00 PM
