*.* life.. unexpected ya? things dun go your way all the time.. *.*
hmm.. TIRED TIRED TIRED.. there's no other word that i can describe how i'm feeling now.. sigh.. :( dunno why i'm always so tired:( well.. 6hours a day.. not veh enough for me i guess:( sweedy needs more sleep!! sighh.. aniwae.. school was ok today lo.. pon lecture again:( sigh.. well.. din want to pon one.. but the idea of going alone.. :( dun like to b alone.. sigh.. all excuses i guess.. but.. well.. it was chem lect.. on electrochemistry.. i dun understand anithing:( sigh.. need to read up on my own.. yeah.. aniwae.. school ended aafter chem prac.. haha.. chem prac was fun today.. we made esther out of phenol n benzoyl chloride:) haha.. but not veh sweet smelling lo.. haha.. er.. quite sweet.. but gets quite sick after a while.. haha.. but it was fun yet dangerous at the same time.. haha.. cos phenol can bur our skin when it comes to contact with our skin:( haha.. but we're all safe:) good job 2705:) haha.. we did pair work.. haha.. i partnered cheryl:) ya.. haha.. but we were all tired. so sian sian one.. haha.. after school, met ainaa for tuition.. got a little angry with her.. been asking her to learn her time table since the first tuition session:( but she everytime nv learn.. ask her to MEMORISE on the spot.. after two minutes, she tells u she is done but she din memorise a single thing.. then i was quite firm with her.. sigh.. aniwae.. tuition ended.. then saw chang yuan's msg.. supposed to meet at sing post coffeebean to study.. but he say he just bought some things then wana go home.. haha.. i was quite happy.. cos i wasn't realli in the mood to study.. abit tired le.. haha.. so i gladly agreed:):) haha.. ya so here i am.. home at last.. gonna have a good sleep today:) haha.. was just tinking that.. our future.. realli so so far.. i mean.. it's so out of reach to me.. (listening to the song "out of reach" now) haha.. aniwae.. i dunno.. n it's so.. like.. i dunno how i'm gonna put this in words.. the main thing is.. i dunno wat will happen to me in future.. can i make it to uni? if i'm going to uni, wat uni? wat course? once i finish my course, wat job? n which guy will i fall for? i also dunno.. haha.. will i get married? will i have children? life.. still a long long journey to go:( sigh.. i dunno.. n i can onli cling onto God.. but.. do i still have the strength to hold on? i can't even go to church.. will my mum allow me there one day? will she come with me? will my family come with me? God.. please.. i realli hope the time comes soon.. i dun wana lose faith.. i am afraid i might not have the energy to hang on animore.. :( Father.. please let the time come.. i am still waiting.. i'll try to wait for as long as i can.. patience.. perserverance.. traits i'll try to build up on.. God bless me n everyone else..
I needed Jesus @ | 4:57:00 PM
