*.* school's tiring me out.. so are relationships.. *.*
well well.. i'm so tired.. and i realli hate school so much.. sigh.. :( not onli bcos of the school work n the whole load of revision that i have to do.. it's also about frens.. i realli am tired of trying alot of things which i'm trying not to think of now.. well.. but i guess it's just me.. things n pple who mean so much to me.. many.. are drifting away.. i've tried.. i'm trying.. but.. i tink.. i'm giving up le.. i've said this many times.. i'm tired.. realli tired.. sorry.. if i hurt u.. i apologise.. but.. i'm not gonna try again.. it's not that i'm totally correct in watever i do.. watever i've done wrong.. i want to change it.. but if u just keep quiet n ain't telling me anithing.. it doesn't help.. so.. sorry.. leave me.. i'll leave you too.. money.. it's something that we cannot live without.. not that it is the most important thing in life.. as it goes.. qian2 bu2 shi4 wan4 neng2, dan4 mei2 qian2 wan4 wan4 bu4 neng2.. yeah.. things are turning out bad at home.. well all e money matters.. probs with loans and stuffs.. if i say i'm not scared.. i'm lying.. but i dun tink i can go around dropping tears, crying away.. well well.. i just look as i am.. as i've ever been.. mayb i've over masked it.. n i tink.. i seem quite irritating to some pple.. sorry.. i din mean it.. i just want to look normal.. sorry.. forgive me.. i cry.. silently.. i dun wana let anione worry.. not even mummy.. i'll b alright.. well.. mayb things aren't that bad.. but well.. i'm onli a 17 yr old girl.. who is pretty ignorant about wats going on around me.. in the world.. when things i've nv experienced is thrown to me.. i'm naturally lost.. yeah.. lost.. totalli.. God.. help me.. carry me.. like how anione would carry a crying child.. i'm a lost.. sad.. tired child.. i need you.. n help me to keep my focus on you.. and nothing else.. no one else.. Lord.. i thank you for the frens that have been around to support me all these while.. in one way or another.. they may have just said a few words of encouragement.. some comforting words.. some jokes to cheer me up.. some lame jokes to cool me a little.. haha.. yeah.. thanks.. brother, geck ying, ron, ethel, pj.. i'm realli glad for frens like you:) love you pple loads.. i realli treasure these few close frens that i have.. i realli dun deserve pple being so nice to me.. yet God has placed you pple in my life. thank you Lord, thank you pals.. i love you all:)
I needed Jesus @ | 8:31:00 PM
