WAH!! i'm damn irritated today.. i dunno why also.. probably it's the hormones in my body creating such a big mess in my mind.. DARN.. ahhhhhh!!! i feel like screaming out loud at this time.. damn! wat the hell!! sian.. i hate chem! i hate school! i hate exams! i hate everything! ): i hate getting involved in relationships.. ):):): why! wats all these crap that i'm put through.. i'm not saying that i'm the onli one that's going through all these la.. but wat the hell.. i'm just in a realli bad mood today.. i better stay clear of pple before i get angry with them for no rhyme of reason..


darn.. chem.. it's realli crazy la.. i din give up.. yeah.. but.. as much as i've tried to prepare myself.. i'm still stuck here.. not sure of so many things.. sigh.. all thanks to myself la.. no one else to blame but myself.. i realli can't wait till this stupid A levels is over.. i realli can't wait.. i'm like.. half the time.. in tears.. tears that dun flow out of my eyes... they just remain in me.. i can't actualli let my feelings out.. i can't possibly just break down in the middle of no where in the public.. i'll probably scare the passerbys.. at home.. i can't cry either.. i can't.. everything's bottled up in there..


and.. i brought some things on myself.. oh well.. things that i should have settled a long time ago.. i left it hanging.. and it got worse.. darn.. i dunno wat to do.. i dunno wat i can do.. i can onli stay away as much as i can.. i noe u understand wat i meant.. i noe everything takes time.. so let's both keep a distance yea? i hope everything will be ok.. i'm sorry..


Lord.. i need you so much.. i'm realli gonna break down very soon.. with so much thrown onto me.. ): sometimes people say things without thinking.. and they hurt u.. and later they try to be nice to u again.. i realli hate that u noe.. if u noe it'll hurt the person, then why even say things that are not neccessary? why say things that u assume and may not be true, onli to realise it REALLY isn't true.. and then u make up by being nice.. how fake! darn..


it's a crappy day.. u stupid hormones.. stop ur effects! ): sigh.. chem paper tomolo morning and i'm totalli not in the mood to sleep.. i noe the moment i lie down.. i'll be DAMN awake.. crap.. ahhhh!! it's CRAP~