*.* danger in loving somebody too much.. it's sad when u noe, it's ur heart they can't touch.. *.*
well well.. another song that tells of the story in my heart.. sweedy's totalli down down down.. she's not the old sweedy animore.. the one who smiles all the time.. anitime aniwhere.. no more.. the sweedy u see now.. is a broken hearted sweedy.. she feels that.. her heart.. is totalli torn apart.. broken.. it can't b fixed.. no expert will b able to get it fixed.. never.. pple always say.. time will heal all wounds.. well.. it doesn't seem so for some cases.. i dunno how to handle watever it is.. i realli am very tired of facing all the silly problems.. so.. it's either things get better or it never will.. i'm TIRED.. i've got no energy to bother about anithing more than school work, my walk with God and my relationship with my family.. so i'm telling u.. that i realli am tired.. even for some other cases.. i'm tell another u that i'm tired too.. u love her as ur fren yet such is happening.. i dun wana guess animore.. i dun wana worry about why u're like that n u're not willing to open up.. then i'll leave u as u are.. i wun try to probe animore.. to me.. it's an open relationship that keeps me going on.. it's difficult for me to stay in a relationship with anyone who.. perhaps.. try to keep things to oneself.. not easy for me to relate to such pple ba.. ya.. so when i face u.. it'll b pretty fake.. i may appear as though i'm fine with it.. but well.. sweedy's hurt basically.. but i guess.. u had better just leave sweedy alone cos she's probably better off in her own world.. there's this longing in me.. to just take a hot air balloon.. n off i go.. i'm not coming back.. it's not as though many pple will b sad.. probably just my family members and a few closer friends.. well.. take it that i'm selfish.. i realli can't take all these crap that i'm facing.. perhaps.. it's just me. n i expect too much from a human relationship.. but.. well.. many times. pple fail me.. i get upset.. i feel.. i dunno.. i feel like a spare tyre? i onli am needed when u need me.. if not.. u're not realli talking.. n i dunno la.. i'm closing up le.. i'm gonna live in my own world with me myself n no one else.. sorry everyone else.. leave me alone.. i should b fine.. i'm physically tired too.. by the load of work i'm getting from school.. well well.. life is like that.. ya.. pple tell me that.. but well.. when u're like me.. in this stage.. i dun tink u can rationally conclude that.. yes.. life is like that.. i'm sure u'll react the way i am reacting.. wat can i say? well.. sweedy's realli tired that's all... i hate myself.. i hate this world.. TAKE ME AWAY!!
I needed Jesus @ | 10:12:00 PM
