obviously the "i" doesn't refer to me cos i totally do not have a daughter and WILL NOT have any time soon. not in the next ten years at least. if u insist that i will, continue to agitate me, i might just do it. and hey. nobody told me that i should lie to you or go against you and get myself baptised. please. this is a PERSONAL choice. no one put a gun to my head and said i should do it. and u noe wat i hate. i realli hate it that you keep quiet when things go wrong, then when it passes, you jump at any chance possible to use it as a reason to snap at me, or at anyone at home for a matter of fact. I HATE IT. i really do.

you say i'm not the onli one studying in uni and there are so many others living in hougang and they do not stay in hall. hey. din u ever think y? do you tink i enjoy travelling? that's one. ntu is freaking far. and do you tink i wana stay in hall if i have a really happy family? if u are smart enough, the answer is no. i definitely would want to stay at home when my family is a welcoming one. who would want to go back home, onli to face a mother who is screaming at the top of her voice half the time. need not be at me, but you noe wat i mean. it's irritating enough especially when u need some peace. a father whom i dun even speak more than 10 sentences to in a week. WATS THE WHOLE POINT OF COMING HOME? you yourself said you're sick of this home. u said u're sick of me. wat makes u tink i'm not sick of your screamings and BASELESS ACCUSATIONS?

you always jump to YOUR OWN conclusions and think that they are right. you never bothered to ask me. NEVER. and you expect me to tell you. hey. when u are a kid, having to learn that you can never relate to your mum as you would to a friend, wat can you tell her? SECRETS? no way. even basic communication, i'm scared to death. i never dared to joke with you as much as i realli wished to. i never dared to tell you about a boy i liked in school. i never dared to tell you that someone bullied me in school. but. you always tink that i'm a bad child. whenever i forget to do somethings that you ask me to, and i admit it is due to my carelessness and laziness, but as a child, is there a need to lock a child out of a room in a big terrace house when everyone else is fast asleep? the whole place is dark and u say u sleep downstairs on YOUR OWN? hey! she's a kid! and it's onli housework that she didn't do. she din kill anyone! is there a need to chase a kid around with a knife just because she forgot to do some housework or she was cheeky and din want to do her homework? don't you ever tink that how i am shaped to be today is kinda how u brought me up?

u say i'm slutty and flirtatious, getting a boyfriend at this age. well, at least, my boyfriend cares for me. he talks to me. he helps me when i need help. he's easily reachable and someone whom i can speak to. can i do the same with you? when i realli needed money, i asked you for it. and it's been a long time since i last asked you for money. why did i not ask for money? i din want to burden you. but u looked at it in a wrong light. that's also why i say u jump into UR OWN conclusions. you never asked. i always try to refuse when u try to give me money cos i noe it's not easy for you. but u end up saying wat a tough life you have to have such a daughter. i just keep quiet. i see no point in arguing with u at all. back to asking you for money. and after that, you turn around and say that i onli talk to you when i ask you for money. alright alright. it's all my fault. i'm always in the wrong. i'm always the bad person okay? if that makes you happy, so be it. honestly speaking, i'm just waiting for the day that i earn enough, i'll move out. i definitely will. whether i'm married or not. dun worry, once i start earning, i'll give you money. no matter wat, u're the one who brought me up with ur money. i noe i owe you alot of money. i will pay you back. even if it's more than wat u spent on me. watever it is, i want my freedom. something that i noe i can never have with you around.