something happy today! haha geck came to my place today.. haha.. and we made cheesecake.. yup yup.. fun fun fun.. haha.. yeah.. then.. after making cheesecake, we had our lunch and watched pochahontasII.. haha.. nice.. n geck.. haha.. dreaming away.. fantasies.. lols.. haha.. ya then we watched tong xin yuan.. then supposed to have a heart-to-heart talk in my room.. but crazy us ended up taking pics in my room.. with all sorts of funny actions, expressions n looks.. lols.. yup.. realli fun.. and wat i wana sae is.. thanks girl, for keeping that friendship.. realli glad that i din lose u even though we're on our separate ways in some sense.. ahah.. yup.. then walked her to the bus stop.. and she went home..
i dunno wat kind of a mood i am in.. excited? for the camp? yes.. there is this excitement.. it's like my first camp with charis pple:) haha.. and, it's another chance for me to experience God, to learn more things again.. :) that's a good thing.. but.. i dunno.. mayb it's juz me and my moodswing again.. sigh..well.. i dunno..
moodswinging.. sians.. my sis brought in the clean laundry then din fold.. then i got quite pissed cos she nv fold e clothes(which is supposed to be done by her).. oh well, i was the one in charge of folding the clothes last time.. now it's her.. and in the past, if i din fold, i'll get a thrashing from my mum la.. and now? she doesn't fold? nothing happens.. and i'm expected to fold it.. wat crap! i mean like.. of course i get super pissed la.. and i take the basetful of clothes n fold it, while she enjoys her instant noodle with my brother and mum in the kitchen.. after folding, i realised that at the bottom of the basket is some folded clothes(like the past few days').. wa.. she hasn't even been putting the clothes in the cupboard.. then i got even more pissed le.. like.. argh.. different treatment? she seems to b able to get away with everything.. and as the oldest, i get blamed? like even if my brother doesn't do his homework, i get blamed for not checking? oh well.. is that how an eldest child's life should be? i dunno.. sians.. things seem to be getting from bad to worse for me.. n i tend to become down n affected nowadays.. i dunno why... God.. please help me! i realli need to sense ur presence.. ur love.. ur support.. teach me.. wateva i am doing wrong.. i need u to tell me.. please.. speak to me Lord.. :( yes.. reassure me Lord.. especially in the camp.. talk to me.. let me sense ur presence and know u more and more..
