oh finally.. it's raining again.. i hope this rain will last.. a long long time.. i'm for a rainy day today.. not in the mood for my notes.. but i noe i dun have a choice.. it's a week away.. i'm probably 3/5 prepared.. but.. i dunno.. it feels like.. i'm so unprepared.. ): and things had to happen at such a time.. damn.. is that the life i'm supposed to b living? gosh..


everyone hopes to wake up to a beautiful morning.. greeted by the morning sun.. most importantly.. the people u love.. imagine this.. u're still in bed.. and someone is shouting away in the kitchen.. saying all the bad things she can say about you.. saying how much she wished u weren't born.. saying how useless you are.. saying how much she hates you.. well a new experience i would say.. getting up from bed.. leaving behind a pillow that's wet.. drying ur eyes.. walking out of ur room as though u've heard nothing.. but when u see her.. the anger and rage just comes all out again.. u slam the toilet door.. brush ur teeth, with tears streaming down ur face.. wow.. wat an experience..


well i'm useless.. i'm lazy.. i'm untidy.. i'm stupid.. so b it lo.. u wana say that.. go ahead la.. i can't b bothered to argue with u animore.. just dun expect me to face u with a smile.. i'm not talkin to you.. talk to ur two other beloved son and daughter.. pretend that u dun noe me at all.. i'm just gonna bear with this for another year.. less than that in fact.. and i'll b off on my own.. i'm never coming back.. at least.. i dun intend to.. after Uni, i'm gonna work.. i'm gonna earn my own money.. i'm getting my own place.. i'm staying away from u.. i'll visit everyone else except you.. let me tell u this now.. i hate you.. i realli do.. never have i hated anione so much.. never have i have so much rage and anger in me.. over such stupid comments that u pass.. well..


i promise you.. i'll NEVER become like you.. i'm not gonna come home.. with a bad mood.. take it out on everyone in the house.. NEVER.. i'm never gonna pass any hurting comments especially to anione in my family.. especially to a daughter who's heart breaks so easily.. i'll love my daughter.. i'll shower her with so much love.. i'll hug her.. i'll kiss her.. i'll ask her how's her day in school.. i will.. i definitely will.. and i'll show it to u.. i'll have dinner as a family.. i'll go out for wekkly outings with them.. i'll not bother my daughter with housework especially during her exam period.. i'll give her the freedom she deserves.. i'm not gonna learn from you.. i wun hurt her.. so deeply.. i WUN..


as much as i wouldn't like to touch my notes.. i realli have to.. ): sigh.. time to go.. goodbye.. hope u had a good morning.. enjoy ur day..