well well. been some time since i last penned my thoughts. humm. kinda forced, or rather triggered to blog. sigh. well i should be feeling happy. in fact, i was happy for a moment. until something struck me real hard. seriously hard. and i was shifted into a depressive mood. i guess. i tink too much. expect too much. give too little. well. the story goes like this. i'm sure many will think i'm being irritating. asking too much. therefore that explains the tittle of this post. it's addressed to the two of you. and i really sincerely hope. u two will really be happy forever! and i wana be at the table with ur best frens at ur wedding. i hope. i realli do.


well one's my bestie, one's my buddy. at least i consider them my bestie and buddy. and suddenly, out of the blue, i'm told they are together. i'm shocked. and at first, i was so happy for them. i was like WOOHOO! my matchmaking did come true. but. after a while. i started to tink. wat do i mean to them? how come no one told me about anithing until they got together? where's the part where i'm supposed to be teasing them that they like each other without the other party knowing that it's mutual. i dunno. i just felt like an idiot in that window. not knowing anithing and suddenly thrown a fact that i'm supposed to accept immediately. i mean, they probably onli got to noe each other at the start of the year. and poof. suddenly thier attached. to each other. and i dun even noe if they went out together or wat nought. i mean. i dunno.


the next thing that came to my mind. one's my bestie. one's my buddy. pple whom i always hang out with. wat happens now? they will need time on their own. now now now. wat am i supposed to do? i doubt i'll have much time with them. i can't exactly ask the guy out for fun because i might cause misunderstandings. the girl's side ain't that bad. but still. i dun already have very much time to spend with them. with this coming, ain't things gonna be worse? oh well.


all the above are just plain selfish thoughts i guess. and well. stupid selfish thoughts that cost me my sleep. and tears. i dunno. after i went offline. somehow. these thoughts just haunted me like nobody's business. i just couldn't help but cry. i'm sorry my dear friends. i sincerely wish u two happiness. and u know wat? i'll be ur fren till the end of time. unless, i've done the wrong thing this time that is gonna deter u pple from me. once again. i'm sorry. and know that. i love u two(: ehh not in that sense ah. u know wat i'm talking about lar. i just hope things dun change so much. and yeah. anithing, feel free to come to me cos u're still me bestie and u're still my buddy. and i'm realli honoured to be the first to know about this. congrats to u two. (: buddy, dun bully my bestie if not i'll never ever forgive u. bestie, dun forget about me k. ha and if he bullies you, tell me. i'll step on his white shoes! but u also dun go and bully him ok!(: