i'm in front of the computer. and. i dunno wat i want to say. life. up and down for me. good and bad. my computer is dead. that's bad. i dun have alot of time. that is bad. i'm tired and falling sick. that's bad. i'm feel far far away. from everyone else in the world. everyone else who used to be in my world. they seem so far away. for some reasons or other. i dunno. closeness developed into distance. once comfortable, now uncomfortable. things keep changing. people too. i've changed. so much. i'm no longer me. now i'm someone who's pretty cautious about wat pple are doing to me. i'm easily jealous. i expect alot from ppl. i'm selfish. i'm lazy. i have a mask. is this wat happens when you grow up? i got no idea. i'm trying to change. i dun like the me that i see now. help me Lord

well i got no idea man. i feel that i'm losing my friends. that's wat is in my head right now. i just can't put the right words in and i dun wish to direct this post at anyone. i keep it to myself and that's enough. i dunno. but hey if you were my friend. i hope we will stay as friends forever. if you were my good friend, i hope that never changes. i miss you

i tink i'll end here. goodbye.