Saturday, September 09, 2006
*.* 1 more day.. before i stand before death.. *.*
hmmm.. the feeling of being home alone.. eating cup noodles for dinner.. realli scares me now.. sigh.. i dunno la.. mayb it's just me.. but i'm feeling kinda down.. yeah.. dunno why.. just feel kinda down today.. dunno why.. i dunno why.. dun ask me la.. ask me i'l tell u i dunno why also.. yeah.. aniwae.. some happy stuffd today ba.. dun always talk about sad stuffs.. haha.. today.. supposed to meet geck to study.. but since i was going to church.. i could onli meet her to study for like 3 hours.. had to leave by 6 to get to church on time.. yeah then she say.. onli for such a short while then she rather study at home lo.. since she's like comfortable studying at home.. haha.. yeah.. sorry girl.. then since i wasn't meeting her le.. then i called pj lo.. since he said he can meet up.. yeap..was tinking whether i should invite him for fellowship.. cos he couldn't make it for service.. but decided that i should la.. then tot it wouldn't b a bad idea going to church to study first.. shun bian ask him some chem questions.. yeah.. so carried on with my plans lo.. hahaha.. called pj then decided to meet him at the 51 bus stop then we went to church together.. (: yeap.. n spent bout an hour on chem kinetics.. then had fellowship! (:(: fellowship was good.. had games first.. n thanks to my gd fren PJ.. i was being sabo-ed!! :( so kena forfeit lo.. tsk!! haha.. n the last round.. i killed myself la.. pass to the wrong side.. tsk.. hahaha.. so i had to drink evon's special drink(sweet sauce+sugar+tapwater) yeah.. tast quite alright la.. hahaha.. yeah.. then we had pepsi cola 1-2-3(:(: I AM THE WINNER!! WAHAHAH *ROAR* hahah.. that i must thank my dear gor gor for training throughout the year.. hehehe.. yeap... then played to "newspaper" game without newspaper.. yeap.. my group lost! :( argh.. haha.. we had to drink the left over evon's special water that i din finish.. hahaha.. yeap.. then later was the use watever u have to form the longest line.. stupid ting an n elvin zhen3 us.. we form so long.. then later they ask us to put everything back in place asap.. fastest wins.. tsk! :( hahaha.. yeah.. so my group took a very long time to do so.. hahaha but we had fun(: then it was my groups presentation.. we sang the song "with Christ in the vessel" (: hoped they liked it.. haha.. made them sing along with us.. (: then ethel's group did gospel presentation.. hahaha..FUNNY LA.. tsk tsk.. lols.. yeah.. then fellowship ended at bout 530.. yea.. then showed pj the church.. walked around.. aha.. yeah.. then went back inside then ting an and desmond and ethel sat down and talked with pj.. hope he felt welcomed(: haha.. PJ if u're reading this.. realli hope to see u join us in church some day n accpet Christ! (: yeah.. (: i'm sure God will touch ur heart some day.. just like he touched many others(: i'll keep praying! yeap.. went for saturday@seven.. it was a nice service.. nice msg.. reminded me of how God's love is unconditional.. yeah.. was tinking.. love that i get around me.. is not totalli unconditional.. like.. i dunno la.. mayb it's not this way but this is wat i feel.. like from parents.. they love their children.. but they would wan their children to behave themselves.. well.. mayb that's not a very good analogy.. let's see.. frens.. frens love u because they like you.. because they like being with u.. i tink that's true.. yeah.. but God.. no matter how we hurt Him.. how we sin against Him.. His love for us.. is always there.. He never condemns us.. well.. how great is such love.. No Greater Love
You loved me, when I was so unlovely,
You sought me when I was lost;
You showed me how much You really loved me,
When You bought me at the highest cost.
Chorus:
There's no greater love than this,
There's no greater love than this,
That a man would give his life for a friend;
There's no higher sacrifice than a man would give his life,
You have paid a precious price for me.
You chose me, when I was so unworthy,
You cleansed me with Your own blood;
You clothed me with righteousness and mercy,
And You crowned me with Your steadfast love.
yeah.. this song realli touched my heart.. God gave His life so that i could live.. and build a relationship with Him.. He loved me unconditionally.. there's no greater love than this.. in this.. i can take comfort.. indeed.. sigh.. even when i feel down.. i have to remind myself of God's great love.. man may fail me.. but God will nv.. this i am sure.. sigh.. i have to remind myself.. and stop myself from getting into those depressing moods.. yeah.. Lord.. help me to remember that i've got a great and lovely God(: yeah... and i realised.. how dependent i am on company.. i can't stand being alone (unless i realli want to b alone).. i need company.. i need at least one person beside me. whether we talk or not is a different story.. i just need someone's presence.. sighh.. yeah.. aniwae.. yaand was talking to chang yuan.. haha.. yeah.. he kept saying he blogs quality stuff (i wun disagree).. not that it's not true wat.. yeah.. then he compared a part of mine to his..yeah.. can see the difference la.. then he told me his fren once told him that he wants to redo his whole blog cos he doesn't want to blog about his life but more general stuffs.. well.. when he told me that.. i had nothing against it la.. just felt that.. it's my blog.. i can blog wat i want ah.. i mean.. ya.. i'm not restricted to blog things that pple want to read.. i dunno if whoever is reading noes wat i mean la.. but i just wana b myself.. n this is where i can write out how i feel.. well my language isn't that fantastic. but.. yeah.. i am just voicing out my own tots.. n if anione doesn't like it.. just close the page n dun visit this again lo...yeah.. tink it's a pretty long post today.. thanks for reading.. sorry for wasting ur time.. i tink i'm tinking a little too much today.. i dunno why.. mayb it's stress.. maybe it's tiredness.. but watever it is.. it's me n my blog.. yeah.. tink i shall stop here..
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