ohh today's a nice day(: a fine day(: that's because.. i went to a place where i always wanted to go but dun have to privelege of going all the time.. yeap.. church.. that's it(: haha.. aniwae.. i woke up kinda earlier today(: haha.. i woke up at 10(: hehehe.. yeap.. n i studied in the morning lo.. yeap.. did bio lo.. but still lagging as usual la.. i dunno how la.. but yeah.. sigh.. ):


but well.. my mood lightened a little(: yeap.. headed for church after my dad reached home.. met PJ at his house bus stop then took the bus to church together.. yeap.. haha.. n TADA! we were in church! (: ahaha.. yeap.. socialised a little then i went to write my letters.. yeap.. haha.. wrote some notes for the people in church.. haha.. yeah.. n off we went for service(: it was qutie alright.. JUST THAT.. i felt like i was attending a kindergarten service for a while.. hahaha.. but it felt great(: at the end.. i went up to b prayed for.. and pastor Kian Cheng(dunno how to spell) prayed for me.. he told me.. he saw a vision of a bud.. growing.. i dunno wat it means.. but yeah.. i was kinda touched when he was praying for me.. i cried.. ): yeap..


a flower.. wat i could figure out.. after analysing a little with brother.. a bud.. will grow.. and eventualli flower.. the flower.. will either bear fruits or it will die and wither off (i learnt that in bio! in order to bear fruit, the ovule needs to b fertilised by the pollen grain!) wahaha ok digression.. yea.. it will either bear fruit or wither.. does it signify my life? my walk with God? i dunno.. God will reveal it to me i should tink.. i hope..


i was reminded of God's love.. things may have turned out wrong at home.. between me and pple.. but God reminded me.. HEY sweedy.. how come u're looking for love in people when there's a God who's so willing to love you? that struck me.. why am i wanting pple to love me much more than i wan God to? i have lost my focus.. ): i'm sorry God.. i wana come back into ur open arms.. i wan ur hug.. i wana feel ur big warm hands carrying me.. forgive me Lord.. teach me to turn to u.. teach me to depend on you.. yea.. teach me Lord.. remind me..


yeap.. went for dinner after service.. haha as usual.. church pple always take a LONG time to decide where to eat.. always dilly dally in church.. haha.. sigh.. problem ah.. haha.. aniwae.. we sent ethel's fren to the traffic light before the mrt and then we went to the hawker for food.. I DUN LIKE THE MEE POK! ): so GROSS! ): onli the fishball nice.. so i din finish the noodle.. onli ate less than half i tink.. ethel scold me): haha.. but i din like it at all.. tsk.. yea.. then went with ethel and jason fung to KFC.. waited for bryan there..haha.. then got car ride home(: WOOTS! (: yeap.. haha.. he sent me and ethel home cos he on the way(: yeap


so i'm here now.. tink i'm tired le.. gonna sleep at 130? haha tired): din study much lo.. sigh.. but i'm glad i went for service.. very glad(: yeap.. haha.. thank you Lord.. thank you.. i love you..