Her Rant
love..
Saturday, February 21, 2009
something pastor kian cheng mentioned today kinda struck me, and made me feel normal. "when u love someone, you desire to spend time with the person, and when spending time with the person, time seems to fly".. something along that line.
i'm a people person, i need people around me. but sometimes, i really dun understand why i really hope people i like will spend most of their time with me. i tot i was over possessive or something. but i guess, the above sentence explains it all. it's because i love them, the people i love, i'd like to have more of their time, hoping they'll love me too. but i guess, sometimes, it's just too much to ask for from them. i dunno. probably, i'll take a step back. retreating may be a better choice.
participated in the performance at church today. a skit. song titled "stain glass masquerade". interesting song. the skit, meaningful one too i feel. i guess i'm like that. faced too much rejections in life that i've learnt to pick up some masks to fit the crowd. the mask of humor, of craziness that takes away all the ugly sides i used to have. sometimes, people really can't accept me ba. even now.
i only wished to be able to have u by my side as much as possible. but u dun seem to agree with this. i guess, we are different ba. it's okay. u're still my friend. but it'll never be the same again i suppose. i'll be strong. may God bless me.
Lord, i want to love you more. i want your presence more in my life. help me Lord.
Finding the tune 10:27:00 PM. |
sometimes love just ain't enough
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
well well. today quite a dull day. was feeling sick in e morning with a heavy head and a bad runny nose the night before, so i din catch much of a sleep. woke up at 9plus with puffy eyes, bad nose and head. rar. bad morning to start the day): sigh.
had lecture. met my jc frens for lunch. and then it was my song presentation for GV17. was quite nervous. ran to the toilet twice before my performance, and went out for the third time to practise my song for one last time. yeap. and just a few ppl before it was me, i saw tim and jingyang and frens walking in(they were there to support another friend la) haha. i panicked even more. boox. more ppl to sing in front of leh. ha stress.
my turn. i sang. when i just started, i was quite unstable. haha couldn't really reach the high notes at the chorus. booo. haha but got a lil more stable as e song moved along. yupyup. overall. i tink it was an okay performance ba. yeah. haha after i sang and returned to my group, my fren turned around and told me, " haha ur voice doesn't match ur face and behaviour". lol. well. it's over le. a pat on the back for every single singer(:
then after lesson, walked back to hall with tim and jy. invited jy to my room. hah yeah. so we were slacking in my room, looking at youtube videos and all and we both got hungry. booo so we went to eat. but i dunno where i put my key! so i spent a freaking long time looking for it and jy found it on my table. lol. i searched the table a few times. haha blur me. well. i like such times of relaxing catching up. haven seen jy for such a long time. kinda miss this "playmate" haha. always disturb him and all. hope he'll be back to join us some day. MISS U! haha
yeah. and now. i'm still not feelin too good ba. physically. mentally. emotionally. sometimes i tink. i am a mental patient. one with unstable emotions. i'm just unstable. but only people who are really close see such a side of me. if any of u see me like that. u'll probably tink like the one who saw me in that state. i might need help according to wat that person said. it did sting me for a while. how someone close could say that to me. it wasn't really phrased that way but in that line. but well. mayb i do. i dunno. and sometimes i tink. mayb i'll do better in there. hah okok morbid thought. ignore that.
well. right now. i just wana stop doing the wrong things that i'm doing. i wana sin no more. no more. and. i hope that big problem can be settled. u wan it, we'll do it right. if u dun wan it, let's go on our own ways. i'm tired. u're tired too. we noe wat has been going on. if u tink u can't handle such things, then i suggest u give this whole nonsense up. because if u can't handle it now, i dun see how u can handle it in the future. dun ask me anything. make ur own decision.
i'm just in a freaking big mess. mess. i just wish i could get myself out of all these mess. sometimes i really wish my life would end here. i realli dunno if it would make any difference to ppl around me. without me in their life. would it be better? i dunno. but for now. since i'm around. all i can do is be as socially acceptable as possible. that side of me. is better to be kept within me.
i'll end this post here. i dunno how to organise the rest of the thoughts. my last few posts have been such negative posts. sigh. sweedy. look at more positive things please. just wana share the lyrics with u. the song that i sang. tink it's quite a nice song. meaningful lyrics. speaks my heart.
I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door
But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough
Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change
But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough
And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay
And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Finding the tune 8:34:00 PM. |
promises
Monday, August 18, 2008
haix. it seems like i just can't get myself out of the "hate being alone" feeling. i dunno. i just hate being alone. and i really HATE IT. sigh. and yet. there are so many times. so many. that i end up alone. i'm so tired. so tired. i dunno wat i wana say. my mind is in a mess. big mess. so is my whole life. oh well.
promises. are they meant to be broken? i dunno. i've been faced with so many broken promises. they hurt me. but now. it seems, i'm immune to them. i tink i've gotten used to it. in the past. sweedy seldom break her promises. but there was a period of time. i know i hurt this fren so much with my promises that were never fulfilled. i'm sorry. to this friend, debra, i wana say a big sorry for the broken promises. i really hope i'll never do those things to u again. i guess, right now, i'm having a taste of my own medicine. God bless me. i hope i dun break down.
today is a pretty fine day until the night came. well i was faced with a broken promise that i promised myself i'll remove all those promises from my head. i dun wana remember a single one because i dun wana be hurt anymore. on my way to ntu. the train had some technical fault or something . the train was not moving. my journey was delayed by 15 mins or so): only got back to sch at 11+ after visiting a sick friend.
back in hall. roomie ain't around cos she's got lessons only in e afternoon so she'll only be back tml. so i'm here all alone. facing my lappy and four walls. blahx. boring. then i went to bathe. the heater wasn't on. so i went out of the toilet and turned it on and went back into the bathroom. the water was still FREEZING COLD. i had no choice. i just bathed. i tink i almost died. super cold): sigh.
wat an unlucky day. disgusting. i hate such things. roar. just wish that my hair will quickly dry. and i can go to bed. and i just looked at my clock and realised that it is already 1am. God bless me. i miss my dog.
Finding the tune 12:48:00 AM. |
thoughts
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Finding the tune 11:58:00 PM. |
tears
tears. everyone noes wat tears are. how much tears do we shed in a life. i dun quite know. i seem to have shed the most tears in this year. so much. but i suppose, many times, i caused myself the tears. yeah. self caused. no one to blame. well. i wished i could be smarter in handling how i relate to people. but sometimes, it's just so difficult to control the way i feel, how i express myself. i always tot the people closest to me should understand y i'm behaving that way but it seems, sweedy, u're wrong.
she's up there, he's down there, her hands in his. how i wish when we were in the same position, the same thing happened. but well. they're just different. different. we seem to be very different too. it seems, not everyone can accept the uglier side of me. it happened once. i tot i could give someone else a try. but both. close to me, yet i always got reprimanded in some way or another. sweedy, u have to change. that ugly side, is not too acceptable to people. change it.
wanted to bury myself in some cognitive psychology. but it just can't seem to get into me. i dunno how to take things off my mind. sometimes, simple concerns leads to misinterpretations and cause unhappiness. am i that difficult to read? mayb i am. and sometimes, i tink i'm just trying to get too much attention from people and i guess i put ppl off in that way. for that, i apologise to those who have been irritated with me for that. i din mean it. it just comes from me. i only realise it after everything.
right now, i tink sweedy just can't be herself in front of others. a happy go lucky approach proved to be better. and at times, she should just channel her extra energy to somewhere else and not tire people out with it.
back to burrying in cognitive psy. i wish fridays were free days. i miss you mummy. goodnight
Finding the tune 11:33:00 PM. |
lost
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
ooh it's been ages since i last blogged. and this seems to always be my first sentence whenever i blog after a freaking long time. lol anyways. i'm in office now. and as u can see, since i'm here, i'm definitely slacking!!! hahahah well my job is to slack. lol the two boys are out to send stuff to changi prison. heheh me e girl gets to stay in e aircon room and slack till they're back and off we go for lunch(: whee~!
well well. see my title of this post and u'll be wondering y i'm lost. honestly, i just feel lost. no particular reason. it's this sense of dunno wat to do, where to go and what is happening. i'm trying to understand things and people around me better. i'm trying to see things in a clearer view but easier said than done. and many times, i dunno wat i'm doing.
people around me have suffered having to tolerate much of my nonsense many times. well well. i promised others and more importantly myself to take care of my own emotions and it's not working i guess. even worse when i've got that special visit from some aunt every month(not difficult to figure out what i'm talking about huh). yeahh.
but well. sometimes i'm trying but that whole blast of emotions explodes once again when i'm faced with irritated people. when they scream at me, or at least when i sense anger or irritation in their tone. it's difficult for me not to explode in such circumstances. well i guess at such times, just leave me alone to do some thinking and i shld be fine. well i'm difficult to handle. i also dunno wat helps myself. well well. just keep praying for myself ba.
well nothing much this week. probably some catching up with old friends ba. meeting up with two of them this week and next week(: yeah.
getting hungry. and the two boys have yet to be back. booohx. rarr. tink i'll end here. i'll have to do some thinking about my life too. good bye for now.
Finding the tune 11:12:00 AM. |
2 more days
Friday, May 09, 2008
two more days and all this depressing moments will be over. i miss you. so much): sigh. these few days have been torture): well. but thank God, i've got things to do these two days so it wasn't as bad as things were on monday.
well well took up an invigilation job. pretty tiring actually. tot it's just to walk around and all that. haha. but in the end, i am super tired out from walking man. somebody save me. i'm aching all over. hah. yeap. then hung out with twin and wenjie today for lunch. then went shopping for mother's day pressie with ronald. must thank ron for e company man. if not i will really be some loner walking around in city hall. yeah.
awaiting ur return. misses.
time to sleep. goodnight.
Finding the tune 10:46:00 PM. |
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
sighh. a sign of overdependence on someone. once that person is not around, you feel real empty, lost, missing that person around you. sighh. save me. please come back soon! ):
well my exams are definitely over. since the 28th of apr. haha it was not a fantastic exam cos out of three, i am onli confident for one paper. sigh): but i guess i did wat i can when i wanted to do so. the rest of the time, i couldn't help but feel helpless and scared): sighhh really must work uber hard next sem.
today has been a day of bumping around and i really mean bumping. i almost sprained my ankle while i was just WALKING around the house. i hit my toe or finger, can't remember which one, dunno by wat. i was just carrying my doggy up when he almost gave me a big chew on the face. sigh. something's wrong with me today.): save me somebody.
haix. i also dunno wat to say. i just feel so sian today): luckily i'm working tml and friday. can keep my mind off some things. well.
OH! i went to the zoo with my dear dear on monday! (: had so much fun! the animals are sooooooo cute! (: haha i had so much fun there! will update the photos next time(: haha you all shld take a trip to the zoo if u have the time too(: u'll love it(:
yeah. time to sleep le. gotta get up early tomorrow. goodnight.
Finding the tune 11:00:00 PM. |
i'm home(:
Saturday, March 08, 2008
haha HOME! the first thing i came home, lucky was unleashed and he came running to me! (: hahah haha yeah. i love lucky!(:
went for supper with shivas peeps last night. had prata! (: haha woke up early this morn~ well well. today's fine. a brand new start to my renewed Christian life. i'm back on the morning devotion track again. finally. haven been going in a long time. hope i'll be consistent. had one hour tut today. haha. talked about sex education. lols everyone was so active in giving their comments in class today. ha. after lesson, went for lunch with sam and nas. accompanied sam till 12+ before going back to hall to nap. so tired. haha. then ngak came over and we headed for the cathay!(: went to catch "The Leap Years". not bad lar. miss wong is SOOOO pretty! omg. i wana faint le. ahaha if onli i was half as pretty as her. lols. *dreaming*
ha yeap. walked around PS with mr ngak. haha we had dinner back in hougang. had black pepper pork chop! (: whee~! haha dear sent me home and we brought lucky for a walk! whee~! some pics for u anyway. going to bed now. goodnight! (:
Finding the tune 12:32:00 AM. |
wrong wrong wrong..
Monday, March 03, 2008
haix. today's a wrong wrong day. woke up early, went for service, thinking that it's my turn to share my outreach testimony today. service was fine. until communion, i saw PME, she told me that i'm not supposed to be doing today. grrrr. i was like.. haix. getting into trouble with my mum.. rarrr.
after service, PKC talked to me about some stuffs. then he made some comments which made me quite sian. i mean. it's not that i din try. i did. just that i'm not that lucky. or mayb, i'm not that strong in my faith and things aren't going too well. haix. things just ain't right lar. i dunno wat i'm supposed to do, i dunno wat i'm not supposed to. i tot i was doing something right, i tot it could help the other person. but. it din turn out right. in the end, everything was pushed away from me. i'm kinda hurting inside. but i'll still keep this to myself. i just hope they'll do fine. i suppose they should. cos having someone who does e wrong things all e time will onli make matters worse.
yeah. as if all these is not enough, my mother's making noise again. she keeps harping on e fact that my brother failed his tests because the few hours that i spent trying to revise his work with him was not useful. because, i was not serious and not willing to help. oh well oh well. wat can i say? i realli wasn't too willing to help because i had my own tests to study for. but hey, i took out time and sacrificed my study time to help him and yet you're saying such stuffs. and if u wanted me to help, y such last minute work? u tink i'm God? i can help him pass with flying colours in a matter of a few hours' revision? impossible lo.
rarr. i can onli say. today is a really bad day. i hope i dun die soon. of anger. of hurt and mayb of illness. well well. it can onli get better from here i hope.
Finding the tune 12:31:00 AM. |
cry baby cry...
Sunday, March 02, 2008
ah dui!!!!!!!!!!!! today ah... tiring day for me. hahaha. woke up early. yeah. went to church for BS. was kinda late. but i was the second to reach. tsk tsk. ha BS's getting pretty long nowadays. haha. ended at bout almost three. ha. but learnt alot(: then went for lunch with e tuffers. then it was time back at church. tried to do my project but not to much avail): sigh. well. the most tiring part came): had to report for my nursery duty. for the first few times in my nursery duty life, the kids started coming in early! =.= that's not the worse part. aunty jenny(my partner) was unable to come!): roar!! first, two kids came. one baby and one tod. THEN came another kid and a baby! =x TWO BABIES!!!!!! omg. i was stunned. baby julia's mummy was feeding her milk and once she was done, and about to leave, julia starting crying!! ):):): but her mummy had to go anyway. so i carried her. she started wailing): had to walk around with her in my arms, talk to her. and finally, managed to rock her to sleep in my arms. that's e key. IN MY ARMS. she never let go. she was grabbing my shirt with her hand behind on my back.
haix. the moment i try to put her in e cradle or on the bed, she cried. so, i had to carry, carry and carry. for an hour plus, i had her in my arms. sigh. finally able to let her go after that. service ended then. ha. yeah. now my arms are aching!): but i still love babies!(: haha they're still cute! (:
hees yeah yeah. sharing my testimony on outreach tml morning. at 8am.. =.= sigh. gotta go sleep already. goodnight.
Finding the tune 12:25:00 AM. |
mugging mugging mugging
Thursday, February 28, 2008
heyhey i've got complains that i have not been blogging.. hah well i tot of blogging many times but sometimes i'm just feeling lazy and dun feel like blogging at all): blahx. i apologise for all those concerned. ha i will TRY to blog more but no guarantees! well most peeps noe wat it's like in uni lar. frens, work, projects, tests... sian. haha. moreover, i stay in hall. so i'm basically in pulau NTU 24/7. how interesting can my life get?
well well. i've started to mug today! (: yeahhh!!! went to macs with my gecky darling.. dun i just miss her soooo much. haha but well we met up a few days ago too. for short moments though. haha back to geck and macs. haha. we did some catching up and talked rubbish, with me cursing some uncle who refused to hurry get out of his seat(where the power point was) so that i could connect my lappy. hahaha. i suspected he was watching porn. lols!!! oops. that's so bad of me. but yeah, he finally got out of his seat anyway. yeah.
i onli started to realli mug after 1+ (i reached at bout 12) haha. yeayea. did two chapters of stats and started on a lil of developmental psy. rarr. i'm running a lil outa time. tomorrow sat and sun is definitely off. no time to study. left with friday le. shld just mug at home le lar. too lazy to go out. yeah.
well well. relationships are tricky things. when two are far apart and dun meet up often, there's a tendency that the two will drift apart. when two are side by side, conflicts arise more often than u think. i dunno. mayb it's me. i'm trying too. but sometimes, things just dun go right. oh well. i just hope things do get better. because if it doesn't, i guess, there's only one way out. the way that many will not want to face. good luck to me.
i'm going back to my revision. oh btw, i got 44/60 for my social psy quiz. i tot it was good but guess wat? the average is 49. gosh. time to work harder..
PS i love u
Finding the tune 12:22:00 AM. |
promises.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
well this post. is a ranting post. and i guess. some might not be happy with the content but i'm still gonna pen it down. i wun put names though.
well these few days have been really lousy days. sigh. so much happening until i dun even noe wat has happened. i onli noe. i cried myself to sleep. a bad sleep. i dun like it. i realli don't. i dun like you too. stop picking on me. you dun like me? i'm fine with it. you dun have to comment on every single thing that i do. mayb it'll be better if i leave your life isn't it? even if it's her fault, i get it too. wat logic is that! i really dun like that. i shall wait till the day you ask me to leave. i will. mark my word. it just seems, i dun matter much to you. perhaps, seeing me less will make you a happier person.
promises. aren't they supposed to be kept? if you can't keep them, isn't it the most basic courtesy to not make one? i get really irritated when people break promises. mayb sometimes you're too tired to fulfil wat u promised, sometimes, some things crop up, sometimes, you just don't feel like doing it anymore. i dunno wat to say. then think before u make your promise ba. because one's mood can change very much when hearing a promise and when having the promise broken. remember, dun make promises if you can't fulfil. it'll cause things to turn sour. i guarantee. before u know it, u might just have lost someone in your life. promises are powerful things. they can create, mend or break relationships.
enough of ranting. time to go do some happy things. goodbye.
Finding the tune 12:55:00 PM. |
tears that cannot fall
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
it's been a horrible day for me. mayb i'm too emotional. but well. the morning started off fine. cool. slept till late. woke up. had my breakfast. then read my book. suddenly. i remembered that i have to register my subjects today. looked at the time. 115pm. 15 more mins. logged on to my account. tried to register. "you are not allowed to register for course now". hmm? try again. the same msg appears. freak out. i went onto the hss web to check out my registration timing again. "psychology year ones: 6 dec 9.30am-1230pm" SHIT i just missed my actually registration timing by an hour. OMG. FREAK. asked joyce wat to do. CALL. called troy and all the funny ppl that i can. EMAIL. emailed all the people i could. no reply. well i'll just wait and see.
went out with my aunt in the afternoon. wanted to buy shoes but in the end nv bought anything. so many ppl buying things. sian. wasted a day. my mum called me at night when i was still with them. then asked if i bought my shoes. i said no. then she said i always take very long to buy one. very difficult for me to buy one lar. i got so irritated. well i din bother to argue. but well. i'm meeting babe hilda tomolo(: ha then we can go shopping together(: hope i'll be in a better mood tomorrow.
thought through the whole day. about how the missing the sub reg timing thing can happen. well. i suppose i dun have much friends in psy to start with. no one to plan my timetable with. no one to remind me of the time and date of registration. well life of a sad lonely girl. haiz pple remember to make frens in the same course. it's impt. shall end here. jiayou sweedy.
Finding the tune 12:06:00 AM. |
pictures
Sunday, December 09, 2007
lucky's got a collar..
my brother loves mr bean!
ngak lucky n me(:
guys at sentosa on 4dec2007
them again. ngak seems to love lucky! ha
the girls!(:
and the dog!(:
ronald looks like lucky doesn't he??(:
all of us!(: shivas~!
tau pok!(:
twins in action again! (:
bleah!
ain't she cool!(:
cool bugs bunny?(:
girlies @ sentosa on 6thdec07
all of us!(: TUF!(:
funny face!=P
lucky stole my cap!! *looks like jay*
hamburger darling!(:
Just some pics over in dec. (: hope you enjoy it(: i'm too lazy to type anything today. my head's spinning): blahx.
Finding the tune 7:47:00 PM. |
ulcers are EEEVVVVVVIIIIILLLLLLLL!!
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
rarr! i got three ulcers in my mouth! and it's all because i bit myself at three different times): blahx! ulcers are so evillll!!! ): bahhss i'm hurting like mad! ): it's at a strategic position where my teeth ends up grinding against it most of the time! ): i am so sad): I HATE ULCERS! ): blahxx.
anyway. i'm going to sentosa tomorrow when i went yesterday. how sporty right. lols. oh well. i'm in-charge of both trips to sentosa i realised. tsk. haha but anyway yesterday was pretty fun. went there with shivas peeps(: brought my bro and my doggie along!(: haha i tink my bro had his fun too! the only person who didn't have much fun, would be my poor boy i suppose. when we first reached sentosa, he was down with fever): poorthing. he was complaining of sore throat but i din noe he would get fever. poor thing! ): all i could do was to put a wet towel on his forehead. sorry dear. shouldn't have allowed you to go): haiz. but he was alive for a while. he played bball with the guys*i played too but knocked my head against waikian's head):* blahx):
haha but well. i hope everyone had fun ba. yeah yeah. went shopping with my sis and bro today. got quite irritated. haiz. had to ask my mum whether can not. then my stupid sister just doesn't have a mind of her own, dunno wat she like. AIYO! shopping with them is hell lar! blahx. hope i get a nice dress too. my cousin's wedding, kinda a hassle. tsk. so many things to prepare. not as though i'm the one getting married huh. tsk. rarr. well
oaky i tink i better sleep earlier le. if not tomorrow no energy liao. haha. bye. goodnight. OH OH! i got a new ipod! whee~!(: haha. thanks to singnet! (: whee~! goodnight! some pics! (: of me and my darling i realised. more to come. sorry! goodnights!
Finding the tune 7:13:00 PM. |
狼狈不堪...
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
haizzzzz... horrible day i had. but anyway MY EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!! (: whee~! so. back to my horrible day): rarr. was in school this morning. met alvin for lunch and prayed for him. aiyo. talking about that. he was the first person i was supposed to pray for. and i actually forgot to pray for him the first time!!! terrible lo): arghh. oh well i tried to make up but i noe i wun be able to lar. oh well. sorry alvin!!
anyway. headed for east coast with dear after lunch. he was just commenting that the weather was good and that it would remain that way. and i told him, this is the west that we're in. weather's different in the east. and we happily travelled to our destination onli to see DARK CLOUDS all over the place! ): sigh. saw xuemin and peiying blading there. but when we finally reach the bicycle kiosk, it was pouring already): OMG. we sat down in BK hoping that the rain would stop but it never did. ): sighh in the end, we made our way back to hougang. drenched in the rain. dear put his cap on me. and poor thing. i tink he was freezing): anyway we took a cab to his place. haha and i forced him to show me his pics! (: ahaha YOUNG FAT BOY BOY! hohoho!
haha had a good laugh. then had dinner there. instant noodles plus veggie and meatballs and egg. lols. tasted good. hahaha. yup yup. then i headed home while ngak went to town to meet his army friends. yeap yeap.
poor lucky. something's wrong with his eyes. it's swollen. hopefully dear has the car tomolo. then can help me with bringing lucky to the vet. grrr. poor doggie. ): sigh and i tink i have to give him away since i'm staying in hall): boohoohoo ): mummy is finding him a nuisance): sighh poor lucky. hopefully can find somebody who will be free to take care of him and love him ba. :'( sighh. i dunno wat i can do. if i could, i would ba. but school isn't allowing me to do so): sigh
yeah anyway right now i'm just glad that the exams are over. not that they were good for me. but yeah. it's finally over le lar): yeah. i just need a break. watched enchanted with ngak yesterday. it was a good show(: haha and he's singing quite often. LOLS! well i appreciate it though. lolsss
tink i shall end here le. working tomolo and friday. hope things will be fine.
Finding the tune 9:37:00 PM. |
wish "i" could change a daughter
Monday, November 12, 2007
obviously the "i" doesn't refer to me cos i totally do not have a daughter and WILL NOT have any time soon. not in the next ten years at least. if u insist that i will, continue to agitate me, i might just do it. and hey. nobody told me that i should lie to you or go against you and get myself baptised. please. this is a PERSONAL choice. no one put a gun to my head and said i should do it. and u noe wat i hate. i realli hate it that you keep quiet when things go wrong, then when it passes, you jump at any chance possible to use it as a reason to snap at me, or at anyone at home for a matter of fact. I HATE IT. i really do.
you say i'm not the onli one studying in uni and there are so many others living in hougang and they do not stay in hall. hey. din u ever think y? do you tink i enjoy travelling? that's one. ntu is freaking far. and do you tink i wana stay in hall if i have a really happy family? if u are smart enough, the answer is no. i definitely would want to stay at home when my family is a welcoming one. who would want to go back home, onli to face a mother who is screaming at the top of her voice half the time. need not be at me, but you noe wat i mean. it's irritating enough especially when u need some peace. a father whom i dun even speak more than 10 sentences to in a week. WATS THE WHOLE POINT OF COMING HOME? you yourself said you're sick of this home. u said u're sick of me. wat makes u tink i'm not sick of your screamings and BASELESS ACCUSATIONS?
you always jump to YOUR OWN conclusions and think that they are right. you never bothered to ask me. NEVER. and you expect me to tell you. hey. when u are a kid, having to learn that you can never relate to your mum as you would to a friend, wat can you tell her? SECRETS? no way. even basic communication, i'm scared to death. i never dared to joke with you as much as i realli wished to. i never dared to tell you about a boy i liked in school. i never dared to tell you that someone bullied me in school. but. you always tink that i'm a bad child. whenever i forget to do somethings that you ask me to, and i admit it is due to my carelessness and laziness, but as a child, is there a need to lock a child out of a room in a big terrace house when everyone else is fast asleep? the whole place is dark and u say u sleep downstairs on YOUR OWN? hey! she's a kid! and it's onli housework that she didn't do. she din kill anyone! is there a need to chase a kid around with a knife just because she forgot to do some housework or she was cheeky and din want to do her homework? don't you ever tink that how i am shaped to be today is kinda how u brought me up?
u say i'm slutty and flirtatious, getting a boyfriend at this age. well, at least, my boyfriend cares for me. he talks to me. he helps me when i need help. he's easily reachable and someone whom i can speak to. can i do the same with you? when i realli needed money, i asked you for it. and it's been a long time since i last asked you for money. why did i not ask for money? i din want to burden you. but u looked at it in a wrong light. that's also why i say u jump into UR OWN conclusions. you never asked. i always try to refuse when u try to give me money cos i noe it's not easy for you. but u end up saying wat a tough life you have to have such a daughter. i just keep quiet. i see no point in arguing with u at all. back to asking you for money. and after that, you turn around and say that i onli talk to you when i ask you for money. alright alright. it's all my fault. i'm always in the wrong. i'm always the bad person okay? if that makes you happy, so be it. honestly speaking, i'm just waiting for the day that i earn enough, i'll move out. i definitely will. whether i'm married or not. dun worry, once i start earning, i'll give you money. no matter wat, u're the one who brought me up with ur money. i noe i owe you alot of money. i will pay you back. even if it's more than wat u spent on me. watever it is, i want my freedom. something that i noe i can never have with you around.
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abstinence from dim sum till next year~!
Sunday, November 11, 2007
hahaha! my dear boyfriend is so gonna kill me for this but i'm still gonna complain!! HAIYOO. well well. on friday, we went to harbour front centre to eat dim sum. first thing. we reached there and he couldn't remember the restaurant name. and then he saw some banner and assumed it was that restaurant. so we walked towards harbourfront tower. and then we saw some poster and then he wondered if he is walking the wrong direction. so he made a call and yes. we were in the wrong direction, heading for the wrong restaurant. so the correct one was supposed to be dragongate restaurant at harbour front centre. yes. so we finally got there.
ha it was dim dum buffet. BUFFET. yes buffet. so my dear picked up the order sheet. one by one. he looked through and he said," this one two, that one two... two two two two two....." i was tinking, can we finish that much? ha but he said can so let him order lo. so we made our order and the food started to come. not too bad at first. we ate happily(: the nightmare has yet to come. the food started to arrive at the table quicker and quicker to a point that there came two FULL plates of fried dim sum. that scene really sucks. haha. but we just continued to eat.
i ate until i really couldn't fill anything more into my tummy. dear was still eating. but we din finish our food anyway. MADNESS!! roar. haha. not that the food wasn't nice but it's really too oily cos alot of fried. and you noe why lar. dear ah. next time must watch the quantity ordered with respect to the number and the kind of people u're eating with! hahahah but thanks for bringing me there for dim sum(: i still love dim sum! (: and i still love u all the same! (: hahaa
din bring home the usb cable for my hp so i can't put in the pics. will put it up some time soon! (: haha yeah. time to mug. i'm onli one chapter out of 10+ chapters done and i've onli got another 4 days. God bless. goodnight.
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projects. research papers. exams.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
gosh. i'm gonna die soon): i'm so not ready for the exams that is gonna take place in one week): sighh. die die die. well. all i can do now is just try my very best to finish watever i can finish within this period lo. i need to start NOW!!! rarrr oh well. that means i gotta end real soon! grrr.
anyway. this few weeks hasn't been exciting or wat. boring life i lead. sigh. i miss roomie! blahx some pics for u ba. God lead me on the right track. i seem to be moving in the wrong direction already. although i'm conscious of it. i need ur help. please Lord.
Froggy time!! (:
Vanessa's bday party(:
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exams... .. ...
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
yoyo. been a while since the last post? dun realli have much time and mood to be blogging nowadays. i'm either too busy with uni life or i'm too tired. sigh. but well. life goes on i guess. everyone's busy with their own stuffs out there. ha.
oh yes! the real significant event in my life. my baptism. the next level of faith required of me. and i took it. despite my mother's objection. thanks to all those who were there to support(: it warms my heart(: some ask me why take the risk of straining your family ties for the sake of baptism. well i say. my faith is important to me. and God has been good to me, real in my life. and i'm sure He'll bless me. and indeed He blessed me. in the past, baptism was totally a taboo. never have i dreamt about going for baptism without my mother trying to chop me into pieces*okay that's an exaggeration* the same thing about going to church.
my mother never wanted me to attend church. but hey. eventually, God still did miracles. and i stepped into church(: more and more regularly! praise God(: so the same went for baptism. i noe my mother was kinda reluctant. but hey, in the end, i guess she accepted the fact that i realli value my religion over many things. after so much objections from her, i still chose to believe in this God. i hope she'll see something from there, that this God of mine is so real to me. and Lord, i pray that my loved ones will come to noe you soon.
yeah. my faith. y did i persist since then till now. there must be something about it. if not i would have given up, wouldn't i? yeah and to those who wonder why. i'm telling you that. all i can say is that this God has worked miracles in my life. He has been good to me and taught me many lessons. these are all beyond words. all these, you have to experience on ur own and you'll noe wat i'm talking about. so i just pray for all non-believers out there, that you will come and taste the goodness of the Lord. i believe there's no harm in trying, it's never too late to step out of it. but let me warn you, once u step into this relationship with Him, u'll never want to get out of it. it's addictive(: ha will share my testimony the next time(:
yeap. some silly pics for ur reference(: i'm off to study now. exams are in the air....... blahhsss. all the best to all uni students.
ngak and sneg! (: best of friends*wahaha*
we love sneg!
dun you just like the effect? (:
BLEAH!!!
HP101 tut's just a waste of time... BUT we made good use of it! (:
where's e shuttle bus?????
喜
怒
哀
乐
The day I'll remember for life. 211007. Baptism
Ethel's acting cute!!
all who proclaimed God's in their life(:
chelsia and me(:
*trods into water*
*ooh strong waves* Pastors pray for me(:
the old self dies..
a new creation(: *da chang jin look-alike*
sweedy and shirley(:
my dear(: i'm glad u came(:
diana(: thanks for ur support(:
twins(: thanks for ur gift! *salt and pepper* grrrr
Lucky performs balancing acts(:
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dreading the beginning of a new week
Monday, October 15, 2007
rarrr i'm so not interested in the start of this new week. ): sigh. though there's no tests and such. i just am dreading school basically. sians. anyway. a short recap of my week end. saturday. not too bad a day. other than some arguments with my mum. i left the house at bout 2ish 3. went to hougang mall. ngak came to accompany me for a while. he even bought me "honey". haha it's in inverted commas cos it was supposed to be honey but it tasted more like chrysanthemum tea. LOLS. anyway. so sweet of him. thanks(: bought some pens from popular. and a pair of earrings from chamelon. and off i went to church for practise.
practise, nothing much lar. just sing sing and sing lo. i totally din have enough breath for that song. wahh. hahaha. but it went okay ba. (: practised the mime too. ha was part of the gang of BAD FRIENDS. lols yupyup i have to say that jonas is a really good actor! (: kudos to jonas! (: yeah. and after practise, me and twin rushed down to the mrt station to pick ron and ben. haha two little boys who waited for us. haha and the four of us flew back to church *cos we were running late*
and the real thing began. haha. praise God, our performance went well(: both the song and the mime(:whee~! haha yup yup and it was dinner after that. ron looks like he can blend in with charis ppl(: that's good! (: hope he stays on with us(: yupp(:
hmm sunday. family day as usual. ha did some packing in the morning then left home with my family at bout 1ish. went to grandmama's place(: haha i love grandma! (: whee~! but she's as stubborn as me. or i'm as stubborn as her rather. ahaha. her hands are itchy due to enzyma(i dunno how to spell) yeah. then she got medicine dun wana apply, keep scratching. tsk! haha stubborness runs in the genes i suppose. haha yupp.
left grandma's place at bout 745. tinking that i'll be late in meeting my dear bf. but in the end, somebody was later than me. ROAR. ahaha well well. guys nowadays. wat can i say lar. haha but well. my "anger" was appeased after some food(: haha and dear dear bought me some chocolates! (: whee~! haha thanks(: loves! (: then it was Giant! haha i always go supermarkets with him man. haha and buy FOOD!! gosh. fattening man. lols. then it was back to HALL): boooo. i have phobia of NTU already. siansss. haha well. the exams are in four weeks ): sad): jia you sweedy!! gogogo!!! yeah man. i'll also have to learn to depend on God's strength le. with Him, all things are possible. Only with Him.
Some pics for ur reference. *i know i'l be killed* oops. HAHA
geck ying's birthday
geckying and xueling
geck and sinyee(;
gecky and shuning
organisers of the day(:
shuning and me(:
gecky darling and me(:
sweedy and prissie(:
PL-lites!(:
mj gang!(:
guess who!(:
it's a silly bean!(:
we're all bored at lect):
wahhh mei ren yu POOH BEAR!(:
i am a rambo! (:
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i'm tiring myself out
Friday, October 12, 2007
rarrrr! it's finally friday. but i'm still stuck in sch.. bahhhh.. waiting for my dear boyfriend who left his hall key inside the room. haiz. well well. everyone has their blur days. oh well. since i'm waiting, might as well make use of this opportunity to blog lar. well well. *i'm hungry* anyway. this week. still kinda hectic. ): sians. i dunno. i'm still trying to get use to uni and hall life. need some self discipline. ): can't seem to put myself in bed early. 1am is the earliest ba. sigh. and gotta wake up at like 645 the next morning*which i can't seem to half the time* terrible):
sigh. time to do some adjustment lar. well well. i always try to study outside e room so that twin can sleep in peace, without the disturbance of noise and light. thank God dear and his roomie doesn't sleep early. can study at his hall. thanks for allowing me to study there dear! (:
just had a test yesterday. not too bad(: haha studying helps man. hahaha. wat rubbish am i talking about. this is just a sign of hunger and lethargy.. roar.. i dunno wat to type already. i am so not in the mood to blog actually. ): sigh. i need sleep! ): k lar. i tink i'll end here le. sweedy's kinda drained by uni life. i need some time for myself. for God. i need more time):
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RECESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is over.. ):
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
that's during the recess) whee~! i'm at home!! and i dun have to go back to school the next week! wheeeeeee!!! i had enough of ntu. goodness. hall life. is fine lar. just that i'm not getting enough sleep. all thanks to myself. sigh. school's fine. boring at times. tests a killer ): sad. oh well. i tried le ba. i almost died. but at least it's all over now and it's time for a break. i miss home):
i realise i've got alot of draft posts in my blog. haha. always never had the time to finish blogging wat i wana blog. sigh. well but at least i'm blogging now. gecky's complaining that i'm not updating my blog. oops. oh well.
(back after recess) recess is like over in no time): one week just flew like that. i'm uber sad): sighhh. i miss home): i wana go home. ): not that i hate my hall. i like my hall and people in my hall. but i just miss home): i dun wana stay in school. i dun even wana go to school. i dun wana do anything): i seem to be down with depression or something. wat the hell. sigh.
anyway, the recess week wasn't a fruitful one for me. i was supposed to have finish studying for my test already. but i fell sick. was down with food poisoning on the first day of my recess. ): i din sleep well on friday night because of my tummy aches. it was super painful): the next morning, i woke up vomiting and had diarrhea too): i almost died. no energy at all. dear was so sweet. he came all the way down and brought me to the doctor when he was supposed to be on his way to work. thanks so much. after the doc, i took the medicine and went to bed. onli to wake up to the feeling of vomiting again. i spent my whole day either in the toilet or the bed. once, i was feeling really weak, went to the toilet to puke and walked out of the toilet seeing stars. i tot i could make it to my bed in time but in a few steps, i was on the floor. i fainted. my first time. it was a horrible feeling. you are still conscious about wats happening but u just have n energy to say anything or do anything.
my mum pulled me to her room toilet and dumped me there. haha cos i still wanted to vomit. yeah. then went back to bed after taking the medicine again. i have a feeling the medicine makes me vomit. RARR but well. it took me two days to recover from food poisoning. oh i haven stated wat caused this. ROJAK. must be. the night before i had it for dinner. sigh. i'm never gonna eat it again. ): anyway i stopped taking the medicine after sunday. yeah. thank God i still had the strength to go for membership course. ha.
tuesday was shivas bbq day! (: although many din turn up last minute, i tot the whole event was quite fun(: but i tink the guys who were setting up the fire had a hard time): sigh. the fire din quite started and even after it started, it din quite sustain. sigh. so in the end we brought the food up to lynette's place to cook. lols. we had lanterns and sparklers too. nice(: yeah.
thursday was out to study with geck ngak and his gay fren(minglong)! lols. managed to finish one chapter of hp102 and do the tut. yeapyeap. productive. but my tummy was still in pain. i dunno y): sigh. well.
friday. horrible day. started real horrible. dear accompanied me to vivo early in the morning at 11+. purpose: to find a top that i could wear to my cuz's wedding dinner. rarrrrrr. i realli realli din wana get such an expensive shirt one lar): i'm damn sad. i was totally broke after that. left with two bucks to survive the next few days): rarrrr. but i survived. haha. and the wedding dinner's food wasn't too appetising. oops. haha i was looking forward to the yam paste but onli to be disappointed. oh well.
saturday, finally i went for service!(: after like two weeks being away from service. sigh. refreshed in the Lord, but still, i noe i've got loads of catching up with God to do. been too caught up with Uni life. my prayer life has not been good. it's getting routined during meals. and that's all unless i have something special to pray for. God, help me to grow closer to you. I want to keep u in my life all the time, every single moment. not onli when i need deliverance or when i'm down or watever. but EVERY SINGLE MOMENT.
yeah. sunday. LAST DAY OF MEMBERSHIP COURSE! i've graduated from membership course! (: whee~! hahah and when i was walking out of church, i saw jami. then she asked me whether i would like to help out in nursery after i become church member. OF COURSE!! (: taking care of the toddlers(: so cuteee!! (: whee~! although i have to wake up early on sunday morning, i'm willing! (: i lvoe kiddies! (: whee~! aha and then it was back at ntu at night. totally): but i had dear's company(: ha the journey wasn't too bad afterall. (: yup.
life in NTU goes on from here. sigh God bless me ba. one more test to go on friday.. BAHHHH): and i'm studying the FIRST lecture out of six now. ): sianzz. 40 mcqs to go. it'll be over soon. JIAYOU! well well. time to go le ba. gonna mug mug mug! i'm a MUGGER! (what a lie) procrastination is my ENEMY! hahaha oh here's some pics too(:
times with my dear(:
first month presents..
my second bouquet(:
cable car! (:
first bouquet(:
i love you..
lucky has got a new shirt!! (:
PL funfair 2007! 4A2 peeps!(:
Cousin's wedding dinner
kids are the best part of family gatherings(:
sister power! (:
sweedy stamford weedy
brothers are always cheeky..
Look into the mirror
Happy Mid Autumn
i love sparklers(:
mama joyce
neighbours unite
jennifer's running nose...
jenn darling(:
zimin girly
ethel(:
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lappy!(:
Thursday, September 06, 2007
hahaha hey hey hey!! finally! i got my own lappy! rarrr! haha costs a bomb though(to me lar) haha but i'm glad i got my lappy anyway! (: finally can depend on my own le. dun need to go around borrowing twin's or dear's lappy. hahaha. (: whee~! and finally, i can have my own MSN! that's my life man! that's how i can keep in touch with my darlings out there! i miss every single one of them! rarrrrrr!! i love MSN! (: whee~! haha
well well. things are going fine for me ba. just that i'm kinda tired out. lagging behind in my readings. ): sigh. having a hard time trying to catch up with work lo. sian. i've tried le. just that. everytime i'm getting more and more tired. rarr. sians. it's a vicious cycle man. hahaha. i promised i will work hard in uni so i must make sure i do it! no more slacking like i did in jc. rarr. which i regretted): sians. sweedy, you're in uni le. time to grow up le kay.
yeah yeah. i'm kinda drained lar. but i know i will survive! (: haha oh yes. dear gave me the first bouquet on sunday night! (: haha thanks(: loves. ahaha and yesterday, i got angry over something minor. and haha i tink i scared him quite badly. lols. he went to twin for help. and wat he did. you can see below. red candles forming "i love you". i came out from bathe and saw wat he did. totally melted le lar. not angry anymore. haha BUT! he should be thankful for twin man. hahah(: if not i wouldn't be talking to him today le lo. lols
yeapyeap. some pics for you ba. yup yup(: hope everyone is having a good time with watever you are doing! (: i'm gonna study hard now! and work hard to bring souls to the Lord! (: take care everyone! (:
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standing by my choice
Sunday, August 26, 2007
okay. i'm gonna make my confession. i am attached. and who's that lucky boy. haha go find out on ur own ba. hahaha. yeah. well. details of wat happened and stuff. i'll keep them to myself. (: haha but all you gotta know is i love him(: and he loves me too! (: this postsecret card below is just for you. thanks for everything. love you.
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a new chapter
Friday, August 24, 2007
hmmm well well. uni started. life is kinda fine. just that i've got a whole load of reading to do. ): to complete with or rather. well well. alot of reading to do especially for psychology. sianz. but i dun regret taking psychology though. ha if given another choice, psy will still be wat i will choose ba(: haha. yeap. took up soci as elective too. it's super GP can. wa piang. haha. really must read up more. hmmm. haha. just got the textbook today. thanks to jonathan(: he sold me his book for $28. whee~! saved $12(:
yeap. well. school life's fine. requires a lot of self discipline and control i guess. which i used to lack. not as bad now. at least i will make sure i sit down and complete my work before i do any slacking. haha. but so far, not much tutorials that i have to do. haha. so yeah. things are still not too heavy for me. yeap. hall life. i thank God i din go for hall camp. if not i sure got no time for my studies one. tsk. haha. yeah. not too involved with hall. look at ngak and dan. tsk tsk thy've got a whole load of activities in line for them. especially dan. hope he can balance ba. jia you! ha
anyway. uni is a totally new phase of life for me. putting many new chapters in my book of life. but so far, i am enjoying my life. i have yet to regret any of my choices and i noe, i'll stick to my choice no matter wat. unless. things get really out of hand. i would hope not though. well. i've got many to thank for contributing to the different chapters in the book. i am glad they came into the story, making the plot a more interesting one(: ha yep watever it is. i thank God for all of you. especially you. (:
time to go off already. might be a little dead for the next few weeks. have yet to get my lappie yet. yeah. bear with me for a while then. goodnight.
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here's a little test.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
saw it on bryan's blog. looks interesting. ha (: have fun! ( :
Create your own Friend Test here
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I AM BORED):
Monday, July 30, 2007
rarrr! it's monday! and i'm super bored cos i'm stuck at home with no one to msg and no one to chat with): blahx): dan and ngak has gone for camp. twin seems to be busy with other stuff. ronald is out settling stuff. boohoohoo): i need some entertainment. rarr. i hate being stuck at home having nothing to do but to handle my stupid brother who refuses to do his homework when being asked. darn. rarr!
oh well anyway. let's see wat has been going on the past few days. starting with saturday. nothing much. just slacked at home before going to church. i dunno y i was so tired. but yeah. i woke up at 11+ and was back on my bed at bout 3. ha fell asleep and woke up just in time to get to church. was almost late. ha. yeap. got to church on time anyway. yeah. service was fine. yeap. then i rushed off to meet dan. was supposed to just have a talk. ha but was msging ngak then he said he's frens ps him. and he's left with no dinner partner so i asked him along for dinner with me and dan(: whee~! but i noe i shouldn't have done it. cos i was the saboteur. rarrr. i was bullied by the two of them. i ate like alot lar! i almost vomitted le lo. and the cup of sugar cane juice was like. MY GOODNESS i hate the two of them! blahx! hahaha but it was a fun time lar(: whee~! ronald you missed it! blahx! haha
yeapyeap. dan sent us home. reckless driver he can be. hahaha. terrible. but yeah. i got home safely anyway. with ngak being the escort for the last lap from the petrol kiosk to lift. haiz. guys will always be guys. my place is safe lar. lols yeap. that's saturday for you (:
sunday. aiyo. slept too late on sunday morning! haha was lazing alot in bed rar. had to get up for tuition anyway. sigh so i got up anyway. and to my utter horror! mummy bought a pack of nasi lemak. rar. sorry i dun like to have heavy breakfast. i was like. omg. haiz. had to eat it anyway but i obviously din finish it. so off i went for tuition. my cuz and i were like taking turns to yawn lar. talking about tiredness. sigh. how come i'm so tired. ): rarr.
after tuition, met ngak at hougang mall to buy stuffs for hall. tink if i din call him out to help me, i realli would have died. there's so much to carry can. ): yeah. thanks ngak! haha i owe you a meal for that. (: yeah was supposed to go to grandma's house on sunday but my aunt din go so we din have transport there and so we din go): blahx. i miss grandma. and because i din go, i couldn't go there and find out about my roots. haha *i owe ronald an answer about my roots* hahaha. i'll get it done next week! whee~! haha (:
yeah. that's how my weekends was. fun filled(: draining too. rarr. haha. hope this week will be better(: looking forward to take a good look at my hall. hall 8. NTU. here i come(:
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i'm an auntie):):
Saturday, July 28, 2007
whee~! today's gym day! hahah (: yeah! (: haha twin came to my place first. it was pouring. hmmm. haha but we went ahead to the gym anyway. met dan at the cafeteria and waited for ngak to arrive. ahha he was late. TSK TSK. lols. but anyway. he came and we went gyming anyway(: OH! all my life! i always tot that the $2.50 that we paid for the gym session onli allows for an hour in the gym! my goodness!!!! only today. then i got to know that it's NO LIMIT! rarrrrr. but at least i know now lar(: haha yeah gym was tiring. i dunno if i pushed myself too hard. cos i ended up with a bad headache. but yeah the work out was still good(: whee~!
lunched with gym gang(: ha walked to some part of hougang. haha i still dunno the place well lar. mayb i should just take a walk along hougang some day. lols yeap. then we walked to hougang mall(my first time walking to hougang mall from my area) haha. yah. dealt with money and finally, i headed home for my bath and went for tuition.
tiring. really tiring. slept on the bus. ha tuition was fine lar. not as bad. yeah. i just wonder, wats with kids nowadays. their realli not afraid of ppl in authority. probably not all ba. mayb i'm not too good at disciplining kids cos i'm more like a clown to them? but well. i do scold wat. somehow, doesn't seem scary enough issit. rarrr. well i can onli do this much to help them improve le. doing wat i can. ha.
after tuition, headed down to tamp to meet twin to get stuff for hall. ngak said he was going there with his fren too so we ended up shopping together. dan told us about the great sale at metro thus we all headed there. everything's on 80% discount. *wow* haha and in my whole life, i felt the most aunty-ish today~! ): rarrr. we were like dragging our pillows and stuffs that we wana buy around. in the midst of so many pple. eee i hate crowds. ha. but yeah, the guys helped us with our stuffs too. can't imagine if it was just me and twin alone. we would have died. thanks guys(: anyway, i nv want to be an aunty again. roar.
yar. we cabbed home after shopping. singapore is lacking cabs? i highly doubt. but we waited a good 45 mins or so for the cab. rarr. yeah. ngak's fren dropped first. followed by me. yeah. i was lugging all the stuff home. haha. home. i'm finally home. i'm already dead beat. but friends are more important. ha i need my daily conversation with my friends so i always try to be online. (: haha but i'm being chased to sleep from time to time. hee. bleah.
okay now i'm really dead. i better go and sleep now. anyway. my life. seems to be picking up a little. uni life. excited yet apprehensive about it. but i still look forward to it anyway. going to my hall next week. hope everything will be fine. adding a little spice to uni life, sounds good. haa. goodnight.
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