Monday, November 28, 2005
well.. haven been blogging for so so so long!!! well.. guess.. although i've been such a slacker.. din have the mood to blog ba.. well.. wat has been happening.. hmm.. well.. life.. peaceful yet chaotic.. peaceful on the outsie(like everyday slack around.. nothing to do.. then like just play com.. hep with housework.. then get scolded by my mum as usual..) but the chaos is within.. yeah.. letting go.. i din noe it would be so freaking difficult to let go of some things.. but well.. i'm trying.. i noe it will hurt.. but no matter how long it will take, i guess it is a must for me to let go of that.. Sweeedy.. u can do it.. if u see this, do keep me in prayer k? pray for a me to be strong.. to be sensible in facing wateva situations.. to be able to handle them.. yes.. i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me:) as for that talking problem.. i'll try hard.. to whoever it is.. i'm so sorry.. guess brother, u're right.. the fear of becomming closer.. then even more difficult to let go.. i dunno.. but gotta learn ba my dear girl... i will! i can! :)yep.. school's gonna reopen soon.. in one month.. i haf rotted a month away.. time i go back to the books and notes.. sigh.. loads of stuff for me to do.. loads of stuff for me to learn too.. sigh.. that's life? but i am thankful or God, my comforter, my enourager, my friend, my Father.. :) thank you Lord for always being there.. and thank you for putting pple around me to love me, to care for me, to encourage me, to teach me.. thanks.. now.. time to face the world.. the cruel, scary world.. with God, i haf nothing to fear..
I needed Jesus @ | 3:15:00 PM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
well well.. hees.. holiday.. enjoying myself eh?? hahas.. yeah.. maple.. chat.. do puzzle.. decorate photo frames.. look after my terrible siblings.. hmm.. haha.. well.. holi is like that i guess.. yup yup.. ask my mum if i could go to church.. well got a negative answer from her.. yeah.. her explanation.. alot.. one was that she is a buddhist and she expects met to follow her.. another one is that when she was pregnant(with me in her tummy) she dreamt that guanying brought her a dragon and gave it to her.. so she believes that the dragon was me(i am born in the dragon year).. oh man.. wat crap.. i mean.. sigh.. but actualli, realli glad that i did ask her coz it realli strengthened my faith.. ya.. i noe that i have to show her that i am not saying this out of impulse.. not believing in God for fun.. bcos pple ask me to.. but bcos i realli believe in this wonderful God.. that He died for my sins.. that He loves me for who i am.. yes.. so i will perservere on.. yes.. and also.. she mentioned that i will onli be allowed to church once i find my life partner, knowing that he is a Christian too.. yup yup.. i'm like.. right.. that is gonna be so long later.. :( but i noe God has His plans for me.. so i'll wait.. patientli =) yup yup.. can't wait for guitar lessons to start.. but i will miss out on the first session!! =( gotta go for Leo event.. sigh.. sad.. tot i could finally learn up guitar proper.. then can play properly.. hahas.. but i hope i can go for the rest.. sighs.. ya.. and bs too.. and it was during bs last saturday that i was urged to ask my mum about going to church.. the verse in matthew 28:18 "... All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me(GoD).." and my bs leader asked.. wat is one thing u will do now that u noe that He has the authority.. so.. asking my mum if i could go to church came to my mind.. ya.. yes.. n.. i tink we still have a problem.. we still can't seem to talk to each other face to face.. ya.. even when msh.. i tink.. it became more to the point kinda thing.. like juz ask wat i haf to n expect the answer to wat i ask and that's it.. veh different from the past lo.. well.. think.. maybe it's better for the both of us this way? i dunno.. wateva it is.. i juz hope the friendship does not get affected.. yup.. tink i shall go sleep soon.. tired le.. haha..
I needed Jesus @ | 11:51:00 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
yeah!!! hah.. at home today.. super shiok!! hees.. slack lo.. woke up at 12 today.. then ate lunch.. hees.. no breakfast le.. lol.. then helped mummy seep the house.. then cleaned up the stuff in my room.. yup yup.. then sat down n watch vcd!! hees.. watched korean drama.. LOVERS IN PARIS!! super nice.. chiong the vcd.. hees.. at 14 today.. ahah.. the couple got engaged!! hees.. but i tink something bad gonna happen =( sigh.. hope they get together in the end.. =)yup yup.. then watched from bout 1 plus till like 730.. oops.. haha.. yeah.. then went online to play maple.. haha.. then my maple partner came online too.. lol.. ya.. then maple le.. then after that kena dc.. so i went to bathe.. hees.. then now.. juz rotting online lo.. finding pple to play games with me... hees.. shall see who free one.. haas.. tink i shall end here.. hees..
I needed Jesus @ | 11:35:00 PM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
well well.. wats up today.. hmms.. well.. went to cheryl's hosue in the morning.. then finished up mr see's photo frames.. hahas.. ya.. not bad ah.. managed to do up 6 photo frames in one day.. hees.. pro ah.. but aniwae.. not that nice la.. haha.. sorry ah mr see.. yupp.. then was deciding whether i should go for kbox.. then cheryl said she din wana go.. so i din wana go at first.. until i was talking to bev.. then she managed to persuade me to go.. then i msged mr see told him i was going.. then he said he was nearby.. can pick me up.. then i tried to persuade cheryl for one last time.. n it worked.. i was happy.. but i guess.. not for long.. she went there.. then juz sat there.. ya lo.. sig.. shouldnt have like keep asking her to go.. wells.. ya.. sorry girl.. aniwae.. i had a good time singing with the rest.. yi han is super pro la.. she knows almost all the songs.. haha.. yi han!! we muz sing more duets together ya!! haha.. we're a good pair.. erm.. bev too.. my singer partner.. hah. nice to sing with u!! hees.. and as for mr see.. hmm.. sorry i got no comments.. haha.. except for one.. tao ze's song.. not bad wo.. :) haha.. elicia.. next time dun need mic le.. lol.. haha.. yup yup.. time to go bathe le.. yup yup.. sigh.. n also.. time to mug soon.. :(
I needed Jesus @ | 8:36:00 PM
Monday, November 07, 2005
well.. friday.. those tears managed to force themselves out of my heart.. sigh.. i was out with some people.. and some things juz din change.. after so long le.. i still had the same reaction towards the same people.. all these while i hoped that it would change.. but it never.. coz.. i never knew how to make it change.. i never knew how i could change my behaviour.. i never knew wat i can say.. i'm sorry.. i dun mean to do this.. but.. i guess.. i work this way.. i dunno how i can change it.. someone.. please tell me how.. yeah.. was talking to my someone online.. n i told that someone about wat happened and well.. guess i lost over my tears.. they made their way out.. but.. i never let them fall.. they juz forced their way out, but nv got the chance to roll down my face.. yes.. it was onli a short short cry.. i noe that there;s no point in crying for so long.. yeah.. aniwae.. ya.. i juz hope things will get better.. oh well.. went shopping today.. with mummy.. n sister n brother.. bought some stuff.. mummy paid.. hmms.. feels good at the same time.. not that good.. well.. tink i better not let her pay next time le.. sigh.. haha.. aniwae.. have to tink hard for the next few days le.. sighs.. hahas.(cos mr see asked me n cheryl to help him deco his photo frames that he intends to put our clss photos).. haha.. so muz tink of how to deco it.. hmms.. MR SEE!!! WAT DO WE GET FOR THIS?? BEING SO NICE TO U??? lol..haha.. tink i better go sleep now.. after crapping through my inr.. sians! PW REALLI SUX... sigh.. goodnights..
I needed Jesus @ | 1:19:00 AM
Thursday, November 03, 2005
lol.. haha.. let's talk bout holidays!!haha..i luv holidays!! hahas.. finally a time when i can like relax.. n not bother bout sch work(for a while).. lol.. yup yup.. holidays started on monday.. hahass.. but a bad start.. coz had to go see the vice principal with my mum.. ya lo.. results not that good ma.. but the main thing was bcos i nv take gp cos i was sick on that day so took mc.. yup.. a short talk.. but vp is quite nice.. haha.. i'll study harder for sure!!! then came back at night.. n came online(but din blog.. too lazy)haha..then played maple with mr see.. lol.. a ** year old playing maple. so cute.. hahass..
anyway.. let's talk bout tuesday now.. lol.. erm.. went out with 2705 pple and mr see.. haha.. it was realli fun!! haha.. yeah.. haha.. we had lunch at marina square food court.. then went to esplanade walk walk.. then took alot of pics.. lol.. mr see like star like that.. everyone ask to take pics with him.. haha... yup.. then after that, we went to the arcade.. some of themplayed pool.. while others fiddled with the games in the arcade.. yup yup.. hahas.. then me, cheryl, shi hui, esther n mr see went to the photo shop downstairs.. then developed some pics.. wallet size ones.. lol.. quite nice:) haha.. i especially like the one i took with bevelin.. :) hahas.. yup.. then after that most of us left together(all of us in fact).. yup.. then i left with shi hui.. we took nel together.. the others took the green line.. mr see sent esther n cheryl home.. n some pple had some romantic time after dinner.. LOL!!! yup..n today.. my pw grp pple came n we made some amendments to our op slides.. haha.. then they watched tv in my house till like 9 then they left.. lol.. fun day too.. then tomolo.. going jason's house with the church youths:) so interesting.. but i tink i'll juz sit near the tv.. watch tv lo.. haha.. ya.. hope it'll b a nice time.. :) sleepy le.. waiting for my dear mr see to finish his download.. then go sleep le.. tomolo going to the sensei to get my ankle "repaired".. lol.. sprained it a week ago.. sigh.. haha.. yup yup.. hop i can still walk tomolo..
I needed Jesus @ | 12:09:00 AM
