*.* friday!!! *.*
wow.. i survived yet another week.. sigh.. a realli tiring week.. woke up late three times this week.. onli woke up on time today.. haha.. yup.. let's see.. yesterday was thursday.. hmm.. nothing much lo.. haha.. ran from tj to east coast n back to tj for pe.. aiyo almost died.. sigh.. but quite ok lo.. ya.. then.. had lessons.. n after school, went to pp with esther:) haha.. we had lunch at pasta mania.. haha.. i had spicy chicken with linguine.. then esther had chicken bolognese with spaghetti:) haha.. yup yup.. then we walked around.. went to giant to get her.. she bought some chocolates for the year ones.. n she bought the peanut butter m&ms.. haha.. ya.. then when we were at the counter, i saw mrs paulier!! my primary school music teacher.. n when i was parade comander in 4th coy's 85 anniversary, she was the guest of honour.. yeah.. it was great to see her around again.. ya.. we chatted for a while then left le.. haha.. ya.. then me n esther just walked around.. then left at bout 2+.. haha.. had fun:) then went to aunt's house to pick my brother up n came home.. yup yup.. today.. finalli woke up on time.. hahaha.. ya.. then had school as usual lo.. as tired as ever.. sigh.. keep wanting to fall asleep.. even if i'm not that tired.. probably.. the teachers have hypnotising power then.. hahaha.. sigh.. yeah.. but aniwae.. managed to get through lessons today lo.. yeah.. then after school, met zhang yuan n ethel at pp.. haha.. went yoshi for lunch.. zhang yuan's first time:) then he nv use chopsticks.. haha.. then after that realised that got chopsticks.. haha.. ya.. then after that.. he finished le then he ate the jelly.. haha.. he din see the spoon for the jelly then he use the chopsticks to eat! aiyyoo.. hahaha.. so cute.. small boy la wat to do.. hahaha.. ya.. then we chatted n crapped there for some time.. then walked around while waiting for brother to arrive.. ya.. then after brother arrived, we went to look for Elizabeth's present.. ya.. then walked around again.. n left le.. i took 15.. from in front of the POSB atm.. was with ethel.. then met zhang yuan opposite.. he was with brother.. haha.. ya.. then chatted on the bus ya.. then he stopped at east shore there while i headed home.. tired.. changed to 25 at eunos.. slept on the bus.. yup yup.. now i'm at home.. n my mum's irritated:( sigh.. sian.. cos tomolo i'm going to mgs n there's no one to pick up my brother from school.. sian.. sometimes ah.. i tink.. she's like OVER protective lo.. sian.. my bro is already p4 n my sis is already sec1 la.. dun realli need pple home all the time to look after them one lo.. sian.. dunno la.. then my mum trying to change her leave with her colleague.. then she sae until like everything my fault like that.. sigh! my fault lo.. everytime also my fault la.. i'm like so stuck at home la.. no freedom nothing.. i mean.. which girl at my age.. can't even liek go out with her frens on weekends? sian.. i realli hate this.. but do i haf a choice? NO! sigh.. God.. help me to get through all these that i'm facing:( sigh.. n sometimes.. i prefer things two pple noe to b kept to themselves.. n not to like have the other person telling some others who approach him/her wat they are doing or talking about.. well.. i dunno la.. sian.. like.. u go tell some other pple wat u n this person are doing.. like ya.. dunno la.. sometimes, i just want to keep things to myself lo.. sigh.. well since it's told to others then so b it la.. i'mtired.. gonna polish boots le.. goodnight..
I needed Jesus @ | 9:43:00 PM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
*.* tiring but fulfilling day:) COOL! *.*
haha.. well well.. today woke up at 630.. aiyoyo!! so terrible.. but still managed to get to the bus stop n caught 854.. i wasn't the onli one in the bus so i assumed i could still make it on time.. aha.. ya lo.. then i met cheryl at the bus stop.. but 229 just had to come late.. tsk! then the whole group of us were stopped near the canteen.. after the national anthem, she asked us to go report to the late coming corner towards our right.. but the pple in front just walked straight through to the parade square.. all of us followed.. haha.. then nobody stopped us ma.. haha.. so we din get booked.. lols:) haha.. aniwae.. onli had two lectures today.. yea.. then no contact time.. so met shengli during lunch.. then he sat with me n cheryl.. he had his lunch.. then his fren choon kiat(dunno how to spell) came along.. haha.. got another new fren today.. hahaha.. yup yup.. :) then we went to the delta dialogue session together:) haha.. then choon kiat asked me if i play the worm game. haha.. his hp got the game! so fun! haha.. then we played lo.. then after dialogue, went to canteen to rot.. haha.. i was waiting for my tution kid to come at 2pm..:) haha.. yup.. then she finally came n we started tuition.. haha.. ya.. she so sweet.. drew a pic of me n her n thanked me for teaching her:) haha.. n gave me a STAR keychain!! woohoo!! :) haha.. star leh.. my favourite.. dunno whether is coincidence.. haha.. aniwae.. ya.. after tuition, went to eat the sandwich.. :) haha.. delta house function.. got plenty of bread n fillings.. haha.. yeah.. then i was eating.. n mel passed my another two sandwiches.. ask me bring up to hall for ron n shengli.. so i brought up with esther.. n as i expected.. sian.. haha.. i called ron out cos i saw him.. then told him that mel kept these two for him n sl.. then the other vball guys were like.. waaa.. haha.. then so paiseh can.. my goodness.. my reputation at stake.. hahaha. so funny.. yeah.. then i left with esther after that.. n met clarissa at PP burger king.. did some work there.. then ethel came to join us later.. :) yup.. then we left PP for church.. BS today:) haha.. yup yup.. then reached there a little late.. but still on time for worship:) haha.. then after BS, went for dinner with the pple.. haha.. din eat.. but had a good time talking to the pple. especially my twin!! debra!!:) haha.. oh!! haha tied up bryan's hair too!! lols!! so fun!! :) haha.. then yakked n left together.. ya.. ethel n twin went the other direction so i was left with mum(clarissa) bryan n tingan.. we walked to the bus stop.. then 13 came so i left first.. haha.. then i lazy to walk to my stop.. so i alighted at eunos n waited for buses that will turn.. haha.. then 28 was a few buses behind n the other three were in it.. aiyo.. the door opened then i heard my name! haha clar shouted my name.. hahaha.. ya.. then reached home at bout 945.. yup yup.. haha.. had a nice day:) tired now.. going to sleep le.. goodnight!
I needed Jesus @ | 11:21:00 PM
*.* TIREDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *.*
aiyoyo.. second week in school.. n i'm like that liao.. my goodness.. sigh.. well aniwae.. let's talk about yesterday.. oh before that!! hello panda bluff pple one!! this is not the first time le.. at least like one in the packet of the strawberry hello pandas i eat.. dun have my strawberry cream!! :'( ahhh... i wan my strawberry hello panda!! :( haha i dun eat other flavours la.. mayb milk but not chocolate.. sigh.. aniwae.. yesterday.. haha.. RON TAN'S birthday! wahaha.. had a fun time man.. lols.. k school first.. i woke up in the morning.. heard my sister's alarm.. tot she nv set properly then anihow ring cos i din hear my hp alarm.. then asked my sis to switch it off then went back to sleep.. the next moment that i woke up.. i looked at the window.. i could see light..(usualli when i wake up for school, it's still dark).. haha.. then i was like i'm late.. but again.. i tot.. is it sunday today?? haha.. then it struck me that it's monday!! aiyo.. looked at my hp.. 650am.. oh great.. i'm late for school.. hahaha.. sigh.. aniwae.. ya lo.. reached school at 8 am.. then din go for chem tutorial.. waited for cheryl they all in the canteen.. yeah.. then had lessons for the day. but was tired la.. aniwae.. haha.. school ended after PE:) haha we learnt to play volleyball.. cool.. haha.. learnt setting:) haha.. just throw n catch ball lo.. hahaha.. yup yup.. then met mel after PE.. went to change then waited in the canteen for ssl.. supposed to meet ron at bugis.. he was already there with his frens.. ya but then in the end.. onli me mel n sl can go n shimin would have to reach late.. so in the end, we asked ron to go home first.. felt so bad after that... ya.. then me n sl in the canteen.. i was marking my student's essay.. mel called.. then sae mayb we buy cake then go ron's place surprise him.. hahaha.. ya lo.. so we waited till bout 520.. then me n sl went opposite to buy cake.. we bought a fruit cake.. haha.. then went to buy servets(dunno how to spell) haha.. ya.. then met mel n shimin opposite tj.. took 12 to ron's place.. haha.. crapped on the bus then reached ron's place at bout 630.. haha.. then we called bryan(sl's fren) to ask which level ron stays on.. haha. we all cannot remember.. hahaha.. then sl n shimin noe him n dun wana answer the phone.. then i answer.. i said i'm sl's fren then asked him wat level ron stay on.. haha.. then he also not sure.. so we just tried our luck n relied on our memory cos we went to ron's place b4.. hahaha.. yup.. we got there aniwae.. then he's door was closed.. haha.. then we lit the cake n put it on the floor in front of the door.. haha.. rang his door bell then we ran down the stairs.. he din open the door.. mel rang the bell n ran down again.. finally he came to the door.. then he was like "come out la.." haha.. not fun wan! haha.. then he said he already suspected it was us n still went to change b4 he came out.. tsk! haha.. yeah.. we sang birthday song outside then asked him blow out the candles from inside the house.. haha.. he did it in one breath leh! :S zai.. haha.. ya then we went into the house eat the cake n then i had to rush off le.. then the others left with me too:) haha.. took 358 to interchange.. then rushed off the take the train.. cos i was going to b late for tuition.. sigh.. sl took the train to kallang with me.. haha.. n took 26 with me too.. ya.. then i reached the tuition centre at 645.. aiyoyyo felt so bad.. ya.. had tuition n ended slightly later than 9pm then went back to kallang MRT with hilda.. went to macs to buy fries then headed home.. reached home at ten.. slept at 1215 cos i had to hang the laundry out.. so tired.. today.. tired tired tired.. then went school.. had lessons.. slept during break.. then after school, went to talok kurau there.. with cheryl.. to collect her bag that she lent yong kang.. yup then i went to pp from there.. met jayne n sheryl.. haha.. they were heading for pasta mania:) haha.. i got no money if not i would have joined them for lunch.. so i went to macs.. bought milo n an apple pie.. then sat down n did my hw.. yup yup.. saw two of my old mac frens.. haha.. as in my frens when i worked in macs last time.. haha.. ya.. then i saw the no studying sign on the wall haha.. din bother.. haha.. just continued to do my work.. ya.. was there till bout 430 then headed home.. haha.. sigh.. TIREDD la:( need alot alot of sleep:( sigh.. well.. hope tomolo will b better.. gotta sleep earlier.. cos tomolo got BS.. then must concentrate n listen:) haha.. n i'm meeting ethel b4 that! :) haha.. yeah.. another long day ahead.. pple who see me online tonight, shoo me offline at 11 ok!!:) haha.. gotta go now.. do my hw b4 i come online again later:) haha.. byee
I needed Jesus @ | 5:33:00 PM
*.* failure.. :( *.*
sighhhhh.. fail fail fail.. :( sigh.. woke up at 11 today.. then my aunt n cousins came to my house.. yea. then was doing my work n burning some songs for my cuz.. then mel came at bout 2.. then we started our baking work.. :( sigh the baking was fine.. the first batch was ok.. so was the second batch.. wat went wrong was the frosting.. i was supposed to buy icing sugar.. but i bought normal fine sugar instead.. :( sigh.. cos the recipe said confectioners sugar.. i got totalli no idea wat it was.. i asked mel.. then she said is normal sugar.. but she din noe it was for the frosting.. well.. so.. tried to ground it using the grounding thing.. the one pple used to ground like chilli into chilli paste n stuff.. :( sigh.. still left the frosting grainy.. then i tried to double boil the frosting hoping that the sugar grains would melt.. but to no avail.. :(:( sigh.. then no hope to melt the sugar le.. then i cooled the cake.. poured the icing on.. but the icing so sticky.. then as i tried to spread it with my spatula.. the icing pulled parts of the cake along.. cake out of shape le:( then i was so irritated.. threw it into the into a plastic bag.. packed up n threw the plastic bag down the rubbish chute:( sigh.. yeah.. quite sad now.. :( sin noe things will turn out like that:( sigh.. sorry ron.. i tot it'll b quite a surprise for u that we took the efffort to bake.. but well.. it just din turn out successful.. there goes ur chocolate fudge cake.. sorry.. mayb bake u another one next year(u'll b in army by then!! But mayb after BMT le.. haha.. ) well sorry again.. yeah.. n now, i'm gonna rush my hw le.. din realli have time to do. so yeah.. gtg now.. byee..
I needed Jesus @ | 9:07:00 PM
*.* friday! tiredd.. :( *.*
woO!! finalli! it's friday.. sigh.. it din take a long time though.. but i'm just tired throughout the whole week.. the week did pass quite fast though.. as compared to last year.. sigh.. it's realli a hectic year this year:( sigh.. not much time to play soon.. :( sigh.. but i'll pull through:) cos i have God:) yup yup.. haha.. thank you Lord for always being there when i needed someone to talk to.. someone to just patiently listen to me talk.. :) thank you so much.. i love u alot:) help me to love u more:) yup yup.. so today.. school was quite alright.. yeah.. felt a little long though.. must b bcos of chem prac.. haha.. aniwae.. yea.. then headed for bedok.. went to the shop that sells baking ingredients.. to get some stuff for someone's cake.. hahaha.. yeah.. lugged three heavy bags onto the bus home.. on the way, msged brother.. asked him for some favour.. thanks brother.. yeah.. then overslept on the bus.. alighted two stops later.. crossed the overhead bridge then took another bus home.. so tired.. ya lo.. then reached home.. packed the stuff.. then watched tv.. the commonwealth games.. watched the table tennis match. it was singapore vs australia.. haha.. singapore won!! :) so proud of them:) haha they clinched the bronze medal.. :) yeah!! haha.. then the second match which i found quite amusing.. haha.. was singapore vs singapore.. haha.. so weird la.. singapore play herself.. haha.. yup so the top three teams came from singapore!! woohoo!! :) so happy.. haha.. :) yeah.. at least we show westerners that asians are as good as they are too:) hehe.. yep yep.. then filed my TALL STACK of worksheets.. haha.. took quite long.. haha n now, i'm gonna sleep soon.. tired le.. haha.. tomolo gotta go for enrolment service some more.. sigh.. yeah.. so i should sleep now!! haha.. goodnight:)
I needed Jesus @ | 10:16:00 PM
*.* feeling tired.. keeping quiet.. hoping that it will work.. *.*
tiredd:( I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP! :( sigh.. been coming home at bout 9+ everyday since monday.. sigh:( haven been doing my tutorials:( sigh.. yeah.. aniwae.. let's see wat happened today.. had a busy time running around.. haha.. school.. nana's birthday:) haha.. but got a little irritated with things.. we wanted to get a cake for her before school ended but can onli leave school after 12.. then we have maths at that time.. before that period was chem.. then asked one of the girls who din take chem to go get the cake.. be a little late for maths.. but she dingo.. she kept asking whether the teacher will scold.. whether the teacher will allow us to celebrate in class.. sian.. aniwae.. ya..so in the end i asked her dun buy la.. so pissed.. then i asked the class to stay back to celebrate her birthday.. ya then me n bev rushed.. literately RAN opposite to get the cake n ran back.. haha.. yeah.. then had a good time celebrating for her.. then she played with cream!! :( haha.. she put cream on me!! :O tsk! so terrible.. haha.. ya.. then after that left with bev for parkway.. haha she met her bf.. then i went to buy brother's present.. yup yup.. lugged that taz from pp onto bus 15.. then onto 25.. came home.. then iron clothes.. ate lunch.. then left house at bout 4+.. lugged that taz again onto 25 to PL.. then left it in miss jenny koh's room.. haha.. it enjoyed air con while i was in the sun ok! :( haha then helped miss koh play the piano for the song "comarades are we". kept playing wrongly.. been some time since i last touched the piano.. i realli miss my piano so much:( sigh.. loved those times when i could just go to my piano n hit some keys to play a melody when i was feeling down.. nv tot i it will ever leave me.. n now it did:( sigh.. the day it left.. i dropped a few tears in secret.. :( sigh.. i miss u piano.. sigh.. aniwae.. yeah.. then left Pl n lugged that taz onto 165 to ang mo kio mrt n it went on the train with me to city hall.. long journey huh taz? n it finalli went to its owner.. hahaha.. happy birthday in advance brother:) well i tink i was a little quiet after a while.. sorry.. i tink it's gettin into me le.. not onli when someone is around.. but i guess.. i wun b talking much soon.. wellwell.. yeah.. pple around me.. dun b surprised if one day, i become an introvert.. i dunno.. it's not impossible.. i'm tired le la.. ya.. so i'll just keep quiet.. aniwae.. ya.. reached home at bout 9.. bathed le.. supposed to study for chem mock spa but i'm not in the mood.. tink i shall go do qt n go sleep le! goodnight..
I needed Jesus @ | 9:48:00 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
*.* leading a life that pleases Him *.*
well well.. today.. not too long a day.. see.. lessons.. onli two lectures.. haha.. then had lunch with ron shengli n cheryl.. then went for civics.. haha.. talked bout bird flu.. haha.. my class had a good time talking nonsense.. :) haha.. :) yup.. then after civics.. i waited in the canteen for my tution kid to come.. but had to wait for bout an hour before she came.. then nana joined me.. but the canteen was too noisy.. so we went to the area under LT2.. then did my maths there.. ya.. waited till three.. then i went to the canteen to get my kiddy:) haha she's so cute:) hehe.. ya lo.. then nana left for some cca stuff.. i taught the girl time table n groupings.. aiyoyo.. she totally like me like that.. haha.. u teach her something now, she forgets it the next moment.. must keep repeating n repeating.. haha.. then she remember.. ya lo.. haha then after tuition, i went to PP.. haha.. went BK there to study.. drank milo.. then left at bout 605.. went to church for BS:) well.. well.. ya.. it was good la.. learnt about denial of self.. how we have to let go of our old self n follow God.. even if it means to give up ou dreams, aspirations, future plans.. yeah.. n our faith should b based on our believe in the Lord:) not our emotions n feelings n tots.. yeah.. that's wat i learnt today:) then i saw brother outside the library window.. haha.. he was jumping in the carpark.. crazy.. hahaha.. :) lol.. ya.. then after BS, we went for dinner together.. ya.. had a good time with deborah.. haha.. we're the new twins!! lols.. haha.. twinnie!:) haha.. yeap.. ate le then left le.. yup yup reached home at bout 930.. ya.. tired le.. going to sleep soon.. aniwae.. i tink i am expecting too much of people.. well.. i dunno.. i tink i just expect too much of pple.. mani times.. expect too much.. n end up getting disappointed.. n hurting pple too.. well.. i'm sorry.. i dunno.. sometimes i just tink. i should just shut up.. keep myself away from pple.. well.. i just hope that we can talk.. but whenever i see u, i can't do anithing.. i give up le.. i realli have.. so i'm just gonna let things just drift.. i'm trying to move on.. dun seem to have got many things out of my mind.. n new things are comin in.. new people.. new life.. new problems.. God.. i give u my heart, i give u my soul.. i want to live for u alone.. help me to remember that i am to live a life that is pleasing to u..
I needed Jesus @ | 10:57:00 PM
*.* holidays are over!:( *.*
sigh.. in a flash.. it's a new term in school.. :( so unwilling to get out of bed every morning.. :( sigh.. but can't change anithing la.. this is a phase of life.. sigh.. aniwae.. let's see.. it's tuesday today.. let's back track a little then.. sunday.. woke up at bout 11.. cleaned n packed my room n computer table.. then i headed for church to pass brother, ethel n ting an their post cards which i wrote on the 6th of march.. haha.. that's like quite long ago.. wahaha.. oh well.. yeah.. just passed it to them then i left le.. had to go pick my siblings up from their tuition centre.. yeap.. so i got them n we went to pp to walk n wait for my mum aunt n siblings to arrive.. then went giant n had lunch at foodcourt.. ya.. then headed for grandma's house.. :) haha.. had sweeet potato soup:) haha.. grandma rocks!! :) hehe. yup yup:) then headed home.. helped mummy to "ground" some biscuits so that she can use it to fry the pork.. haha.. then bathed n went to iron clothes.. while ironing clothes.. it suddenly struck me that there's bio SPA the next day.. i confirmed it with my frens.. all said yes.. then i was like.. CRAP!! aiyo.. then hurry go pia the notes.. haha.. luckily man.. haha.. :) haha.. if i found out ani later i would have DIED!! haha.. monday.. first day of school.. all tired n cranky from mugging yesterday.. slept at close to 1.. sigh.. got to school.. had a change in time table.. it's 55mins period now.. n my periods are now more even out.. no more super long breaks.. which is good.. n end alot earlier too!! :) hehe.. yeah.. tehn bio SPA was quite alright ba.. :) thank God:) haha.. yeap yeap.. then went for tuition.. went cheryl's house to slack before meeting hilda at kallang at 6.. then went to the hawker near the tuition centre for dinner.. yea.. ate chicken rice.. haha.. everything there seems to b two bucks.. haha. cheap.. aniwae.. yeah.. was so tired that i din have much energy to teach the students.. so i asked them to do an essay.. haha.. yea.. then i tried to do my bio tutorial while they did their work.. let them off like 15 mins earlier.. yea.. then me n hilda left for home.. found a new route home.. took 26 to eunos.. then changed bus.. hmm boarded a 55 bus.. but like two or three stops later, it BROKE DOWN!! my goodness.. haha.. so got down n thank God.. another 55 came along.. :) yea.. reached home at bout 10.. bathed n then had some supper.. haha.. quite filling la.. lols.. had grapes some more..hahaha.. ;) yeap.. that's about it for monday..today.. hmm.. as tired as ever.. sigh.. haha.. but school ended at 145.. :) nothing much happened in school.. yea.. then went to meet ting yu for.. do i call it Bible study? ya.. haha.. i wanted to noe God from the most basic again.. yeah.. aniwae.. ya.. so we ate tang yuan.. :) hehe.. then had the lesson.. n left at bout 4 pm.. aiy.. i seem to like have forgotten wat i learnt in the past lessons:( sigh.. that's me la.. everytime learn le then forget.. :( sigh.. God ah.. can u help me with my memory.. expand my memory space la.. haha.. oops.. hehe.. aniwae.. ya.. had a good time learning more.. then went home.. slept through on bus 25.. haha.. lucky nv oversleep.. lols.. yup.. so now i'm going to bathe!! :) haha.. then mayb do my tutorials le.. sigh.. yup yup;) tired!!
I needed Jesus @ | 5:14:00 PM
*.* **stars in the rainbow.. will we ever see this??** *.*
trying to pack things up.. put them behind n move on.. but they never seem to want to leave me alone.. this entry is gonna b a highly personal entry.. please ah.. if u're just here to see see or for fun.. please leave.. it's not worth ur time alright.. aniwae.. yeah.. it realli makes me wonder.. wat can realli cause a relationship/friendship to like.. cause two pple to become like total strangers.. well.. sometimes.. i tink it's my fault.. i try hard to change.. tink it's too late.. things get worse than ever.. wat can i do? i can onli sae.. sweedy, learn from ur mistakes.. well these mistakes realli do hurt a great bit.. but.. well.. all i can do.. is just sit there.. n watch u in a conversation with others.. but can nv come up with things to talk to u about.. n i guess.. that's how u feel too.. well.. i dunno wat i can do to make things better.. letting go isn't easy.. i dunno if i haf totalli.. i dunno.. but i realli hope everything will gt back.. to wat it is like at the beginning.. hilda gave sweedy three options.. wait.. throw.. tell.. sweedy chose to wait.. however u're gonna interpret it.. i'm not going to explain further.. i'm gonna leave it here as it is.. aniwae.. went cartel in the morning.. at serangoon gardens.. met yan hui first then cabbed down.. n i haven pay her money!! haha.. ya.. miss ho, michelle ng n goh, vivien n wina were there as well.. miss ho's treat.. feel so bad cos i'm not even part of the sec two camp com.. haha.. yeah.. aniwae.. went back to school to take the bus to MGS.. had A&D rehearsal.. it seemed like eternity la.. sigh.. so tiring.. n i'm blacker now!! :( hahaha. so terrible!! pple call me blackie again!:( haha.. yeah.. then went to church for BS after the practise.. :) feels good to be at church:) see my sister:) haha.. n my frens:) hees. haha ya.. had BS.. then ethel waited.. but i tink probably more for her sis la.. aniwae.. ya.. then i left after BS with niujin n she was talking rubbish all the way.. haha.. we had a good talk though.. RITE? Mr REDD!! haha.. :) yeap.. haha.. then reached home le.. found out something which sturck me quite badly from a fren.. well.. i dunno wat to do with it.. God.. settle this please.. dun let it drag on ani longer.. i'm getting sick n tired of this whole thing.. realli tired.. i just pray for the strength.. for the discipline.. to carry on n concentrate one my walk with u:) nothing else.. u'll b my first love.. :)
I needed Jesus @ | 10:38:00 PM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
*.* i'm fine now.. *.*
oohh.. no dinner yesterday.. no breakfast today!! :( this morning.. miss koh called me at bout 10+ close to 11.. then she told me my sis sort of threw up cos the teachers asked the girls who hadn't had breakfast before today's drill practise.. then she asked me go pick my sister up.. so i got up washed up n told my mum bout it.. then my mum flared up.. dunno wats with her.. then she started a whole thing bout how come the teachers call me n not her.. and might as well just ask the teachers to just inform me everything n leave me to handle my sister's stuff.. but the fact is.. in an emergency, doesn't it make more sense to like inform someone that's of the easiest reach(however u phrase that) than to like dig out a whle pile of list of telephone numbers n start searching for a student's parents contact numbers? well.. perhaps she was irritated with my dad yesterday n venting her anger on me.. i was quite pissed.. as u can expect.. moreover i just woke up.. oh crap.. ya.. but things got better through the day.. we went to escape theme park with my aunt n my cousin.. haha.. yep.. there were 5 rides that were out of order!! :( haha.. but i dun tink i would take the rides even if they were available.. haha.. oops.. aniwae.. haha.. took the 'superman' ride.. haha.. the one u lie down on ur front then the thing turns round n goes up n down.. haha.. quite fun:) haha then we went for er... can't realli remember.. haha but i remember the pirate ship:) haha. so exciting!! haha.. lols.. yeah.. n the ferry's wheel.. issit called that? haha.. ya.. then later brought the kids to the arcade.. haha.. they played n earned like 1000+ tickets altogether.. haha... then we xchanged for food n drinks.. lols.. ya.. more practical la.. haha.. ya.. then we went to ang mo kio.. haha.. i bought a pair of flats.. haha.. haven got ani flats to wear sincemy flats broke at the life at nicole's place.. wahaha.. din have the time to go buy.. haha.. yeah.. then we had dinner there too.. veh full.. haha.. yan now i'm home.. but i'm looking for like karaoke videos and/or karaoke versions of YUAN DIAN by tanya n stef sun:( sigh.. so difficult to find.. anione haf tell me ok.. :) tink i'm going off now.. tired le:( haha.. i'm a pig.. need alot of sleep.. hees.. nitey!
oh ya.. i've gotten over being pissed yesterday.. i'm fine now.. i'm talking le.. yep.. NITE!!
I needed Jesus @ | 11:33:00 PM
*.* my fault ok.. *.*
well well.. today's an interesting day:) had fun!! :) but an irritated day as well.. sigh.. let's talk bout fun first.. :) hmm.. haha.. met my cg mates at 330 at marina bay mrt station.. :) haha.. we were on our way to FLY KITE!! haha:) supposed to b class outing.. but in the end.. onli 8 pple turned up.. including myself.. sigh.. that's the prob with my class.. sian.. aniwae.. even though it's onli the 8 of us, i'm sure we had fun. wahaha.. yeah.. we bought 5 kites.. haha.. then i was holding one myself.. ket it go up.. then brought it down.. had a hard time bringing my kite back:( haha.. yi han n clara flew a kite.. but their's got stuck on the tree.. poh managed to bring it down.. but one tail broke.. then the kite was quite unstable.. flew into a tree again:*( sigh.. ya lo.. in the end, we all sat down together on the table spread.. haha.. then me n yi han practised our song.. haha.. for the com coming up.. lols.. haha.. yuan dian is not an easy song to sing lo.. :( haha.. but we'll do it!! haha.. yeah.. then after we were done, we headed for the arcade.. yi han poh n bev played bishy bashy.. haha.. so pro.. i see until i blur..wahaha.. ya aniwae.. we left at bout 605.. then they wanted to walk to mrt.. they said bout 20 mins onli.. so i followed them lo.. then we got a little lost on the way. sigh.. then supposed to meet ethel elvin n tingan for dinner.. i was late.. then i was quite pissed over a call.. ya.. my fault la.. wateva it is.. i sae sorry then.. aniwae.. ya.. then finally managed to get there.. met them at the foodcourt.. then i din have much appetite.. so i onli ate dessert.. (i'm hungry now:( ) din realli talk much to the guys.. one seemed to not want to talk.. the other.. i din feel like talking to.. oh well.. ya.. then after eating, we walked down to city link.. then elvin n tingan walking together.. i walked with ethel.. the other two were heading for suntec.. they were going home.. then me n ethel just left them to go.. said bye n we went to shop.. well.. i tink i'm nv gonna organise a meeting in this combi again.. aniwae.. ya.. bought a happy house notebook n a keychain.. haha.. all 50% discount.. yup yup.. ya.. then we also bought a pair of earrings each:) mine is like dark orangey brown.. ethel took light purple.. it's those pearl earrings.. of course not real pearl la.. haha.. ya.. we walked around lo.. then i reached home at bout 930.. yep.. tiredd.. tink i shall end here..
I needed Jesus @ | 10:27:00 PM
*.* i'm hommee!! missed me?? haha.. *.*
woo hoo!! I'm homeee!!!! so tired.. haha but i had loads of fun at camp!! as a camp commandant.. n especially with the camp committee!! :) haha.. yeah.. although i'm like the oldest in the committee.. haha.. i tink i'm younger than them mentalli lo.. oops.. haha.. :P haha.. ya.. had fun.. but irritated too leh.. over some things n the way pple handle things.. sigh.. n the sec ones ah.. they totally dunno how to listen to instructions one leh.. tell them this.. the next moment, their doing something that doesn't go with the instructions given.. sigh.. gotta push them la.. haha.. ya.. the most interesting part was the games i guess.. n the girls said they enjoyed it:) hees.. realli happy:) hee.. ya.. then they went home on saturday.. pretty short a camp for them ya.. but well.. :) at least they enjoyed it n learnt the expectations of a GB girl.. haha.. yup yup.. so after we had photo taking, we dismissed the girls.. had a short debrief n me n jacq left together.. then it rained.. n i took 74.. had to walk in the HEAVY RAIN!! totally drenched!! tsk.. haha.. ya so came home to bathe n then headed to church for Bible study.. was late.. but i guess pator Gideon understands.. :) yup.. then jacq's father fetched me from paya lebar mrt then went back to school.. :) so nice.. haha.. yup yup.. :) then today.. stayed over for sec two training camp.. was special prog when we reached school.. haha.. we had pizza for dinner.. then we were asked to bring our sleeping bags to the emmanuel hall.. then they screened the movie "what a girl wants"haha.. veh nice.. sweet story.. :) hees.. yeah.. then we went to our dorm after that.. supposed to have midnight fire drill.. but they changed it to midnight drill instead.. but the sec one camp com pple were sleeping le.. haha that's me jacq fran shijie n winnie.. haha.. then we heard the whistle.. but were pardoned from being there for the midnight drill.. haha.. yup so we slept till morning.. i woke up earlier.. cos i promised the two officers i'll help them wash their cars:) haha.. quite fun la.. my dear daughter(jacq) was with me.. haha.. it was tiring but fun.. n i feel so accomplished to see the difference before n after the car wash.. haha..:) haha yup yup.. then went for breakfast then went to change n left for service:) so happy i made it there.. was there early at bout 945.. then waited in the social hall.. haha.. then brother came.. then we went upstairs for a while.. dunno whether it's the nursery.. haha.. ya.. then saw xavier.. he's so cute!! but he has a bruise between his.. his nose there.. aiyo.. haha.. but aniwae.. still had fun with him.. haha.. tried to make him do hi-5 with me but i kept moving my hands.. then he was laughing away.. haha.. then took his pics n with him.. haha.. so CUTE!! hees.. yup yup.. but i was so sleepy.. tsk.. had difficulty keeping myself awake.. aiyoyo.. then pastor david also spoke to us.. i was so tired.. tsk.. haha.. then after that took 76 to go back to school.. slept on the bus.. overslept.. ended up in ang mo kio.. tsk.. so had to take the bus back to school bout 4 stops away.. haha.. tsk!! haha.. ya lo.. then the sec two camp ended at bout 530.. then came home.. bathed n went to my grandma's house.. fran was with me all the while haha.. then she waited for me to get ready n then left my house together n went to my grandma's house.. same block as hers.. haha..ya lo.. then now.. i'm back home.. so so tired liao.. so i'm going to sleep!! hees.. haha.. goodnight..
I needed Jesus @ | 11:42:00 PM
*.* it's weekend!! HOLIDAYS!! *.*
yay!! finally!! it's time for me to rest well.. sigh.. the first two months in school has realli tired me out.. :( sigh.. but i guess.. that's life.. wat can i do? just have to try my best to stay awake during lectures n tutorials.. try my best to stay awake at night to do my hw.. sigh.. i will try my best.. God, i need strength.. help me to draw strength from u:) i noe all things are possible with YOU!! :) haha.. ya.. trying to b optimisstic here.. hees.. aniwae.. let's back track a little.. wednesday.. it was a realli bad day for me.. well.. now i noe how it feels when pple refuse to perhaps talk to u.. u are left alone.. even pple closest to u.. seem to not bother bout u.. well.. i can't do anithing bout it if pple decide to do that to me.. it hurts though.. but well.. perhaps i'm just an irritating freak n so pple decide to just stay away.. but when pple feel that theyy should come back n b nice again.. i wun reject.. well.. wateva it is.. it's them.. i'll leave them to do wat they wan n i'll react accordingly.. yeah.. wednesday was a terribly bad day.. well i was totally not in the mood to do anithing.. even when i was online.. i din realli talk.. brother, i'm realli sorry bout it.. i realli wasn't in the mood that day.. sorryyeah.. can't remember much of yesterday.. onli remembered that esther came home with me to help me a while with the brownies.. we went to ang mo kio before that.. bought some stuffs.. then came home to bake.. yup yup.. then jacqueline n ying lei came down after school to help too.. then esther left at 6+.. we continued to bake.. sigh the first batch of brownies were pretty dry n hard.. haha.. the corneres were as good as biscuit man.. sigh.. haha.. ya then the second batch was good.. (cos i became smarter n added more water:) ) haha.. ya.. then jac n ying lei left after we were done.. yup yup.. today.. not a very pleasant day on a whole.. got moodswings from myself n others too.. so.. ya.. i jus dun wana tink animore.. just let life go as it will.. i'll b away at camp till sunday.. i hope it'll b a better experience.. God i pray that everything will go smoothly for the camp.. i pray for everyone else.. that they'll enjoy their day:) take care everyone.. anithing, just msg me:)
I needed Jesus @ | 6:06:00 PM
*.* sigh.. *.*
well well.. let's talk bout monday first.. hmm.. not quite a good day in school.. well.. two of my frens.. were like suffering from after effect of some incident.. one din come to school.. and the other would b better off if she was at home though.. yep.. sigh..i hope the both of them are feeling better today.. yeah.. take care ah girls? life has to go on some how.. yeah.. ya lo.. after school, went down to the salvation army at kallang bahru there to give tuition.. realli can get killed by the kids man.. haha.. they so mischievious!! sigh. i'm trying to help.. but i dun seem to b of much help.. someone HELP ME!! sigh.. i hope i can handle them better.. sigh.. haha.. ya lo.. although the guys are pretty naughty.. but it's them who makes the whole thing less boring ba.. well well.. ya lo.. i reached home at bout 10+.. ya.. was super tired le.. hilda's dad sent me to eunos mrt(it wasn't convenient though..) felt so bad.. sigh.. tink i'll nv take his lift again.. sigh.. ya lo.. then slept at like 12+..not enough sleep today as it can b deduced by looking at the time i slept last night.. haha.. ya lo.. was sleepy all day.. sian.. haha.. maths.. kept falling asleep.. sigh.. same thing for chem lect.. sigh.. today had make up chem prac.. so ended bout an hour later.. yeah.. then went to PP with esther.. haha.. we bought ice cream from scoopz:) haha.. single scoop two flavours(but it's actualli 2 separate scoops with two diff flavours..) haha.. more worth the money.. haha.. onli 40c more than single scoop single flavour.. haha.. aniwae.. i had strawberry n choc chip while esther took cookies n cream n choc chip.. haha.. nice!! been some time since i last touched ice cream.. haha..:) so happy.. then we walked around in PP.. i bought my sister's sleeping bag for her.. haha.. $13 onli!! so cheap.. then better than mine some more:( hers got those inflatable pillow one!! :( haha.. sigh.. mayb i kapo from her.. wahaha!! haha. ya lo.. then we walked around.. then left at bout 430.. haha.. headed for kovan.. supposed to have a meeting at 5.. haha.. but i was late.. hees.. i was on 854.. was sleeping.. then when i woke up.. i passed my stop.. so i dropped at the next stop n walked back to the bus stop opposite SRJC.. haha.. took 101 to kovan.. haha. then had the meeting.. yeap.. then went to buy the camp stuffs.. then went home le.. super tired.. haha.. gonna sleep soon le.. yeah.. haha.. so i'll end here today:) time for my bed!! (i'm a little full though.. ate qutie some stuffs.. haha.)
I needed Jesus @ | 10:55:00 PM
*.* sunday.. :) or ): *.*
well well.. i was pretty tired.. then mummy sista n brother went for breakfast with auntie n cousins.. i din wana go cos i was still sleepy.. haha.. they woke up at 8+ n i woke up at bout 11.. with a headache.. but i guess this is one of the days mummy loves me most.. haha.. cos i swept n mopped the floor.. i washed my bedsheet.. i boiled the water.. the house was nice n clean la.. haha n i washed my fan yesterday.. so i din get ani scolding from her.. wahaha!! ya.. that's the happy part.. haha..went to grandma's house in the afternoon.. stayed there till bout 6+ 7 i guess.. haha.. then went to somewhere near my place to have dinner.. i ate a chees prata n plain prata.. wa.. so fattening!! n i ate so much!! haha.. drank teh tarik some more.. haha!! must eat less le!! haha n eat less oily food.. yea.. haha.. then.. a call to my dad started my mother off.. sigh.. she started her nags n they quarrelled when he was home.. sigh.. but.. now he's asleep le.. so.. ya.. well.. ya lo.. reached home.. bathed n called cheryl.. she went to attend a wake today.. of someone our age.. her sec 2 classmate.. a well liked boy.. but he gave his life away.. without tinking about others.. he committed suicide.. wat a waste u noe.. life is so precious.. although it might b difficult at times.. but i feel that we should nv give up on life so easily.. if we ever do die(for watever reasons).. whether we're a good or bad person, we have to noe that.. there will b otehrs who will b sad at our departure.. if we're gonna die because we committed, wun they b even more depressed? sigh.. sometimes..we humans are just so selfish.. wat we want, we want it.. we nv tink bout how the pple around us will b affected.. sigh.. all my frens out there.. i realli hope that these things will not happen with u.. i nv want to feel sad for u doing silly things.. life is precious.. treasure it.. live life to the fullest.. use ur life to touch the people around u.. that's gonna make life more enriching n more interesting:) i'll try too :) we'll all work together:)
I needed Jesus @ | 11:13:00 PM
*.* good thing it wasn't that difficult.. *.*
wa.. today.. long long long day.. haha.. woke up at 9am today.. then send my brother to school for Boys' Brigade activites.. :) so glad that he's in BB:) haha at least he'll b exposed to the Gospel.. n i hope he'll acccept God too:) ya.. but when i walked him to the gate, he walked in, n stood somewhere a little further from the gate.. alone.. then it suddenly made me feel sad.. despite the fact that i din realli like him as a brother.. but it did hurt me to see him alone.. sigh.. i hope it's jst bcos his frens haven reached.. ya lo.. then i walked home.. came online.. then slacked a while.. then went to bathe n left the house at bout 12.. ya.. went to SPC.. bought 4 tubes of fruitips for the girls.. :) haha.. then reached school at bout 1220.. waited for the bus to come.. then officer was late.. dun wana mention who.. sigh.. as an officer, she should set an example la.. sigh.. well but she quite ok today.. :) ya la.. but aniwae.. we arrived at MGS at 120 something.. haha.. ya lo.. then rehearsasl started.. haha.. thank God, at first, i onli had one command to give.. that is the command for my contingent to march off for march past.. but then later, increase to two.. this time for the GOH and colour party contingents to march into parade square.. ya lo.. still thank God.. onli 2. i was so worried there'll b some other commands.. then so scary.. i make mistakes then the whole parade gotta wait for me.. but noe i'm much more relaxed:) hehe.. ya lo.. jus need to polish up my girls' drill.. hmm.. n i need to rest!! so tiring!! n i'm like quite black.. haha.. tsk.. terrible.. but i need a good rest soon.. sleepy le.. but it's my fren's birthday tomolo.. gotta wait till twelve to drop a testimonial la.. argh.. haha.. not that it's of ani trouble la.. just tired.. nvm i'll hang on!! :) haha.. unless i realli can't, ron will do the job for me.. wahaha.. yeah.. done blogging!! haha time to rest my fingers.. haha..
I needed Jesus @ | 9:22:00 PM
*.* yet another friday.. but a good one i guess.. *.*
haha!! today my first friday in the year that i'm going home early!!! wahahahahaha.. hees.. cos tj gave all of us a half day off! :) muacks!! haha.. so i guess the A levels results were pretty good:) hees.. ya lo.. school was ok today.. BUT i did my remedial hw on carbonyl compounds.. n forgot to bring:( sigh.. but i realli did!! :) haha.. ya lo.. so jus listened to my dear mrs chua talk.. haha.. then we did our usual diagnostic test on that chapter.. :( i onli got like 4 marks :(:( WORK HARDER GIRL!! haha.. then after school, came straight home lo.. ya.. came online for a while.. then continued to read "memoirs of a geisha".. aiyo.. sayuri so poorthing:( she was stripped by her "sister" geisha's husband.. :( POOR GIRL!! n that man is SICK!! sigh.. ya lo.. shall continue to read on later.. haha.. n do my readup on new age movement:) hehe.. for bible study.. i hope i can go tomolo:) haha.. aniwae.. ya.. then i took a power nap.. haha... 20 mins? ya.. was waiting for my dad to come back so that i can go down to secondary school.. for GB.. ya.. i reached school at bout 545.. ya.. they were having enrolment rehearsal.. oh my goodness.. the drill was ATROCIOUS.. i'm not trying to b mean la.. bu the standard is realli horrible lo.. :( come on girls.. i'm sure u all can do better la.. then after i scolded them(not much of scolding though.. the other seniors say i dun sound fierce enough..) they improved a little.. but still.. GREAT room for improvement.. but the thing is, they dun have much time to practice.. no more time in fact.. next week n the following week no meeting.. then the week after is enrolemnt service le!! oh man.. this is realli bad:( sigh.. i hope it'll get better.. sigh.. God please help them.. and everyone of us helping them.. ya.. tomolo gotta go down to MGS.. got award n dedication ceremeny rehearsal.. :( sigh.. drill for like 4 hours.. sigh sigh.. n i have so much pressure some more:( SIGH!! i hope i dun make so mani mistakes then cause the whole parade to waste so much time.. n cannot ZAO XIA!! :( haha.. my voice is quite terrible la.. sigh.. hopefulli it'll b ok.. yup yup.. hope everyone else's week has been a good one:) hehe.. continue to enjoy life.. find ur purpose in life:) n hope u find my God too!! let Him love u:)
I needed Jesus @ | 7:53:00 PM
*.* wat day issit? time flies.. *.*
hmm.. yesterday.. school was ok lo.. i had enough sleep the night before.. haha.. so wasn't that tired.. hee.. ya lo.. in the morning, me n cheryl went to 7-11 before we went to school.. she wanted to buy potato chips for zhi jian.. then i was tinking i'll b seeing some seniors so mayb buy something to wish them all the best.. haha.. so.. i bought kinder surprise.. hoping their results will b of a nice surprise to them.. hmm.. at bout 2pm.. A levels results were out!!! wa.. i see them collect i also scared lo.. imagineing myself at the same exact place next year.. waiting to collect my results.. oh my goodness.. n look at those who din do well.. i'm so determined to make sure i dun disappoint myself and anione else around me.. ya lo.. God, grant me strength and discipline.. help me to go throught the difficult times n b thankful for everything.. :) help me to concentrate on my studies.. so that i'll not b distracted by anithing else.. yup yup.. pple around me, see me slacking please whack me k!! haha.. not too hard though.. haha.. yup yup.. then asked my seniors their results.. then ya lo.. talked a while.. then left at 3+.. went straight home.. yup yup.. so... came home n did some work.. then did my QT before i went to sleep at bout 1130..today.. not veh enough sleep i tink.. haha.. felt sleepy towards the end of school.. haha.. swimming in the morning.. did plunging.. yup yup.. fun fun:) haha.. then school was pretty ok lo. haha.. time passed quite fast today.. yup yup.. then went down to secondary school.. to take my contingent for drill.. got an award n dedication ceremony coming up.. got parade.. so my teacher asked me if i can b the commander for the contingent..then i agreed lo.. then today went there.. then i knew that i was the GOH commander!! oh my goodness.. i din noe la.. crap.. hopefully things will go well lo.. i dunno i can make it not.. hmm.. aniwae.. then the contingent gonna b made up of both my company n second company girls.. hope things go well ya.. 2nd coy n 4th coy.. not realli on veh good terms.. watever it is.. 4th coty girls.. be on ur best behaviour.. please dun b hostile ok.. yup yup.. then we were all tired after drill.. haha.. tink my voice.. must drink more water.. scared later i zao xia.. :( haha.. so paiseh one lo.. lols.. tink i can no longer command like last time.. hmm.. go buy honey!! wahaha:) haha ya lo.. super tired although i onli commanded.. so i guess the girls are even more tired.. hmm.. hopet hings will be fine for them.. :) haha.. yup yup.. n i hope they remember to bring their gloves on saturday for practice!! wahaha.. GB 4th coy rocks:):) haha..
I needed Jesus @ | 5:52:00 PM
