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Friday, May 27, 2005

hmm.. playing games online now... haha. with Ron... haha. so funny... sigh... but super tired... but!!! haha... had captain's ball match today!!! n 04/05 emerged as CHAMPS!!! u rock! haha... then went for dinner with ting an, ethel n joan... haha...then i din talk much throughout the whole "session"...haha... sigh... then had a hard time with my feet... sigh... had like dunno bloodclot or something in the nail... sigh... hmm... today's championship was like... wow... haha...super unexpected la! haha...but i t felt great la... yup yup... aching all over now... hmm...

I needed Jesus @ | 11:41:00 PM

Sunday, May 15, 2005

MY DARKEST DAYS

sigh...bad bad bad day...argh... pissed with my mum... she's really been irritaitng me these days... i mean like jc life is already something taht's making me kinda stressed out n i'm like trying my best to adapt to it.. well i guess she juz doesn't understand at all... n it's really irritating...

she seem to b taking me for a maid eh? "remember to soak the clothes,. please go get the clothes taken in from drying, remember to fold the clothes n why haven u been ironing the clothes? can't u bother to help with housework?can't u help with moppin the living room? did u remember to mop ur room? ecould u please clear ur room of the books?" the list goes on... argh... this is realy irritaitng... can't my sis help a little? why has it always gotta b me n me alone? when i was my sister's age, i was already doing all these rubbish... without a word of complain! can't my sister help a little now since she's always home earlier than i am?PISSED

well... n things are gettin worse nowadays... she been saying that i've been using my hp to msg pple... n am always stuck in the room... hello... wat bout she herself?she's always on the phone too! n when she's on the phone, she doesn't answer pple when we try to ask her questions... isn't it better that i'm msging?at least i still talk to pple... wats with her man? i really can't stand these nonsense anymore! i've put up with them long enough! wat do u want me to do?

leaving the house really crossed my mind billions of times... but i juz dun have the courage to... argh... n today, i cried.right in front of her! i helped to mop the living room, n my aunt said after i'm done, i could juz pour the water away in the little drain outside my house.so i did.n my mum juz picked on me on every single thing i did(i dun wish to further explain)... i was like... wat the HECK... those four letters could have been replaced by something worse... well.. wat does she expect from me?!!!

i'm really really pissed... but i'll juz tolerate with these rubbish...i'm sure i'll leave this place one day... strong n confident on my own... well... i've got enuf... really... God i dunno if u're angry... but i am feelin really very down... others may tell me that this is wat u wan me to go thru to make me stronger n stuff.. but at this point in time, i really need nothing but peace from this woman i am having a BIG problem with... i really dunno wat to do...

I needed Jesus @ | 1:42:00 PM

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

hmm... wassup today... haha...had PE today... then ran 6X300m... wa... tired sia... grow fat liao.. haha... oh ya, met Hilda yesterday(finally!)...haha... well well... talked ALOT! haha... well, very long never sit down n talk liao lo... sigh... we were like lookin back at the past when we tot we were so stressed... but compare now n b4... hmm... so much difference... then we were like hui2 wei4 tong2 nian2 lo.haha.lookin at all those kiddy stuff... then realised we actually like all e cute n sweet stuff... cannot tell rite? famcy a drill head n inventory head liking those kiddy cute stuff...haha... go imagine ba... well that goes to show that sometimes how a person potrays herself in front of others may b very different from how he/she actually is deep down inside... haha.. so it's best that u make conclusions of others onli after u really noe that person well enuf.yup...

school life is really really sucky... bvut wat to do? gotta put up with all these nonsense that we're facing coz that's wat education is like in Singapore. sigh... especially the SPAs... can die sia... sigh... kuz had one today... argh... n i tink i veh careless... always never read e questions properly... argh... tink gonna lose alot of marks le... sigh...

now gonna continue with my PW research le... sigh... gotta go liao.. juz wana let all those who are still enjoying life in sec school... really... enjoy ur life there(especially PL-lites)... PL teachers are really a bunch of caring teachers n PL is really a great place with a wonderful culture.thank God for every moment in ur life.n thank GOd for ur friends n family.do take great care! PL... i will b back!

"in Christ alone, i place my trust
and find my glory in the power of the cross
in every victory, let it be said of me
my source of strength, my source of hope
is Christ ALONE"

"our school, is the place i love best
our school isn't like all the rest
for our love makes something special
out of our school everyday...
and chapels every wednesdays are best of all to me
for we are all together just the way we like to be..."

I LOVE PL!=)

I needed Jesus @ | 7:20:00 PM