ahh saw alot of pics yesterday ya. ha was just too lazy to type. so yeah. first thing is. i am very cold now. thanks to my office. the aircon is super strong. doesn't seem spoilt. it's crazy. and i din bring jacket today. and in the end, i went to buy a jacket during lunch cos i couldn't take it animore. it's too cold. i was deciding between a Nike and a Fox jacket. In the end i chose the fox jacket cos the nike one was almost triple the price. ha(: saved money(: bread and tako pachi for lunch. nice. and filling. lols. sure got pple will scold me. but scold me all u wan lar. i noe wat i'm doing.

yeap. been very tired and drained all these while. i dunno y. probably lack of sleep. and some other things which i prefer to keep it to myself. realised that i haven't been talking much about my life nowadays to anyone. probably too caught up at work. well. *an hour more before i end work* aniwae. yeah. i've just returned to the old old sweedy in the past. afraid to talk. probably not that. but i've learnt to keep things to myself le ba. i live in a world full of expectations. expectations from parents, relatives, friends. and time and time again, i failed to live up to these expectations. oh well. wat can i say. i'm not perfect ba.

sunday had tuition in the morning and the evening. spent the rest of the time doing nothing much at home. saturday was A&D ceremony. GOH commander. things went fine until the actual parade. my contingent screwed up when taking their dressing. oh well. things do screw up often. but the rest went well. after everything, we had dinner and stuff. wah they catered good food for the guests leh. got tako pachi, laksa and alot other good food. wah. i wana be a guest too. yeap. then went j8 with pam and oh yes. on the bus, i tot i lost my atm card so gave a call to dbs and asked for termination of the card. after that at macs, i found it in another compartment of my wallet. i tell you. i was just so close to killing myself for my stupidity. errrr. yes. after that, we walked from bishan to serangoon central. that's about an hour. and i took a bus home from there. ha the rest of the week from monday to friday. nothing much happened. oh wednesday, went shopping with twinnie and bought a top (: but we din find the top that we wanted. it's ok lar. still can go topshop find(: hahar. yeah

yeah. right now. i'm just living my life. and spending more time with my family and siblings. i pretty much like my life now. but. i'm losing God. i'm far away. that's bad. i've been missing fellowship at church due to some reasons. sometimes i miss service. sometimes it's because i have things on. sometimes i just dun wan to disrupt the peace at home. you know, to be truthful, i've had thoughts coming through my mind, asking myself, is my faith worth the chaos at home. sometimes i feel like giving up. but somehow, i still hold on to it. many things that happen to me, i cannot give an explanation of why it happened and how i feel about it. it just comes and i can't describe my feeling. Lord, draw me back to you. take me away from my old sinful life. take me far far away. never bring me back again. i need you.

yeap. office is moving from parkmall to midlink plaza. i'm gonna miss the convenience of NEL. will end here.