ooh it's been ages since i last blogged. and this seems to always be my first sentence whenever i blog after a freaking long time. lol anyways. i'm in office now. and as u can see, since i'm here, i'm definitely slacking!!! hahahah well my job is to slack. lol the two boys are out to send stuff to changi prison. heheh me e girl gets to stay in e aircon room and slack till they're back and off we go for lunch(: whee~!

well well. see my title of this post and u'll be wondering y i'm lost. honestly, i just feel lost. no particular reason. it's this sense of dunno wat to do, where to go and what is happening. i'm trying to understand things and people around me better. i'm trying to see things in a clearer view but easier said than done. and many times, i dunno wat i'm doing.

people around me have suffered having to tolerate much of my nonsense many times. well well. i promised others and more importantly myself to take care of my own emotions and it's not working i guess. even worse when i've got that special visit from some aunt every month(not difficult to figure out what i'm talking about huh). yeahh.

but well. sometimes i'm trying but that whole blast of emotions explodes once again when i'm faced with irritated people. when they scream at me, or at least when i sense anger or irritation in their tone. it's difficult for me not to explode in such circumstances. well i guess at such times, just leave me alone to do some thinking and i shld be fine. well i'm difficult to handle. i also dunno wat helps myself. well well. just keep praying for myself ba.

well nothing much this week. probably some catching up with old friends ba. meeting up with two of them this week and next week(: yeah.

getting hungry. and the two boys have yet to be back. booohx. rarr. tink i'll end here. i'll have to do some thinking about my life too. good bye for now.