Thursday, December 30, 2004
well... ONE MORE DAY! n it's e end of work! yeah yeah yeah! haha... it's been really tiring facing e stocks everyday... taking tham out of e boxes, count n put them back in...BORING! but at least, i've earned for myself a decent income...
oh! my mum decided to pay my fees for a NZ trip! wow! i dunno how she managed to raise e money... but i'm really thankful... n i'm also thankful that God has provided for me. Indeed, God provides. He knows wat we need better than we do! =) Praise the Lord.
talking bout New Zealand... pretty excited to get there... but sort of worried too... firstly school's gonna reopen, n i'm leavin next saturday n i'm gonna miss one week of lessons.. sigh... secondly, it's my first time travellin so far moreover alone without my family(especailly mummy)... sigh... well well... but i noe God will be there for me. I know i can count on Him! =)
church... really a tough decision between e two... i've decided to go for both church services this weekend. one on saturday evening n e other on sunday morning... hope this will help me with my choice... i really hope God will speak to me! Lord, i need u to lead me to the correct path! i need ur guidance!
well... after today, i wun meet much of many secondary school friends... sigh... hope to keep in touch with all of u out there! tink i better go now. God bless u everyone!
I needed Jesus @ | 8:38:00 PM
Monday, December 27, 2004
aha! it's 4 more days to the last day of work! uhU! but that at the same time marks e end of e school hols... oh man... kinda excited but at the same time reluctant to step into a new environment in meridian... next thing that comes to my mind is should i stay after the first three months? sigh...
Christmas was great for me this year... went to Charis Tabernacle for Christmas service in e morning... service was good... though i din spend much time with the people after the service coz i wasn't in the very rite mood to yak with them... xr went along with me for service... yeah n we went for lunch after that... i was really pissed with my mother... for some reasons... n when we were having lunch at long john, i cried... argh...
went for FCBC's Christmas bash in the evening... it was as great... though i wasn't in the rite mood still... i poured out my feelings to xr... cried again... but i really enjoyed the whole event (though i din stay thru), especially the worship! when they sang e song "Emmanuel", i din noe the song so i juz stood n stare at the screen with the words flashed on it... yup... but the words... touched me... "Emmanuel, our God is with us..." that phrase... deeply touched my broken heart at that time... it was then, i realized... God has always been there for me, juz that i never remembered... i always think that i can settle things by my own strength... only when i realie am at my worst state, then will i remember to turn to God for help... but that shouldn't be e case! sigh... n wateva it is, God will always be there, no matter wat! for all out there, whether the lonely, the sad, the broken hearted, the weak, the poor, even the happy, the rich... all u out there, God is one great friend that we can always depend on, one that will never leave us. NEVER!
God said: "NEVER will I leave you, NEVER will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5 Trust in God... Out ur Faith in Him n u'll never ever regret. GOD LOVES YOU!
I needed Jesus @ | 7:20:00 PM
Monday, December 20, 2004
hmm... today... good day! haha... diana said she needed pple to work for her so i asked xiu n adelene to go for interview... they went n they were accepted! yeaH! haha... both of them quite funny lah... but relli happy for them that they manged to get e job!
anyway... life's going pretty well for me... my spiritual life is improving... i personally feel lah... i really thank God for forgiving me, giving me another chance to have a new relationship with Him... but one thing is i got no idea abt wat church to go now... i dunno whether i'm attending a certain church bcos of the pple or whether God really wans me there... i really pray that God will show me the WAY...
well... time reallie flies... two weeks time n it's school time... oh... but i'm kinda lookin forward to gettin to JC though i noe it's gonna b tough... but i hope i will learn to enjoy life n study hard... evrone out there, whther u're goin to JC or Poly... do take great care k! God bless! love ya!
I needed Jesus @ | 10:14:00 PM
Sunday, December 12, 2004
hmm.. work... was quite ok... all we had to do was to check the stock n pack them into boxes... but blur me n hilda always miss out one or two of the same type so end up lookin for the box for the same type...
wahaha... but it was great fun workin with hilda... yep
n i met him for lunch on saturday before church service... really glad to be able to go for service... i tell my mum that i'm workin though i'm not... oops... yeah... but anyway, he paid for lunch... n bought me some stuff frm bintan... heez...
holidays are comin to an end soon lah... so sad... but now... i'm lookin forward to CHRISTMAS! but a little confused her... dunno whther i should join his church event coz i'm now attending FCBC.. then if i go there to join them like veh weird leh... sigh... dunno lah... i tink i'll go anyway... oops...
I needed Jesus @ | 8:40:00 PM
Thursday, December 09, 2004
well well... finally... found a job! not a very good one(in terms of wat the company is selling) but i gues it's still acceptable... yup... we're paid 5/hr... that makes 40 a day! yeah! well... haha... before today, i was asked to work at a Thai Restaurant... but i guess it was this mental thing... i have been telling myself that i'm not gonna enjoy that job... n true enough, thruout the whole day for like 4 hrs, i was dreading the job... at lunch time, i sat down... thought for a lilttle while n decided... I SHALL NOT STAY... so i waited for the manger to come back, said sorry n went to change... n off i went... yup yup... geck sae i zai n veh shuang kuai... haha... wateva...
but aniwae... i'm really glad that i found this present job... but me n hilda think that the boss of ours is gonna be a veh shrewd one... bad... but she somewhat keeps picking on hilda during the interview... sigh... hope things will get better...
the day i was workin at the thai restaurant, i went alone... no frens with me coz they only picked me... n that day, he went to bintan with his family... dunno wats wrong with me... but i juz felt weird... tink that contributed to how i was feeling during work... sigh...
anyway... tink i've said enuf... it's time to go... hope work will be ok tomolo! =)
I needed Jesus @ | 8:23:00 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
sigh... so tired these few daes... have been going out to different places for interviews n applications... went with pris n hilda... haha... quite funny though... we went to every shop n like look on the glass panels for the papers... see whether they want people to work for them... haha... then alot of them wanted like 18 n above... we gto so pissed... haha...
but i tink it was also a time for us to like keep in touch with each other during this holiday... we wun see each other anymore mah... sigh... hope we'll all still keep in touch next year...
anyway... i wish all of u out there all the best! tc all u pals! miss u guys! love ya!
I needed Jesus @ | 7:25:00 PM
Friday, December 03, 2004
well well... time really flies... prom's over le... sigh... 4A2 really rock on that day! finally the class unity can be seen... n guess wat? i tink our class was so lucky... we got like a lot of lucky draw prizes... 1st, 2nd n 3rd prize came from our class! haha... n the best make over was Chze Ching! wow! all the way 4A2... for one of the few times we sang the school song so LOUDLY! haha...
well... can't believe it... that's one of our very last gatherings... we'll never see much of each other as we did... should have treasured the days we had together... sigh...
right now, i've gotta worry bout my job... oh man... i really hope i get my job... i've gotta settle all that fees n expenditure at New Zealand next year... hope i can get my job to settle that... my my...hope hope hope...
man... actually... spiritually... i tink i've stopped growing... i totally have no idea wats going on... but that special relationship with God seems to be detioriating... sigh... i've been doing less of QT because whenever i returned home from my previous job, i would be so drained n tired... n i have to leave house by 730 every morning n only return home at bout 8+ at night... there's totally no time n energy left in me to even take out my bible to read... sigh... i really hope my mum allows me to go to church... sigh... i'll keep prayin... i want to continue to develop that special relatinship! i'll be back with the LORD!
I needed Jesus @ | 3:34:00 PM
