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Saturday, July 24, 2004

fRidAy... gReaT dAy... scHooL wAs gOOd... wE hAd mAnY fReE pErioDs... hAhA... tHen tHerE wAs tHE mUsicaL... gREaT jOb aLL mUsicAL pEoPLe!!! iT wAs a sUpEr di dOOpEr sUcCeSS!!! haHa... wELL dOne! tHrEE cHeErs fOr u pEopLe...

aH... fiNaLLy a dAy wHerE i cAn sTay hOmE... sLacK a LiL... hAd tO wAke uP eARLy tHougH... hAd tUitiOn... sigH... twO n a hALf hOurs seEm LikE etErniTy... nOt mY tUtoR's fAuLt tHougH... tiNk hE hAd bEEn tRyiNg tO mAkE tUiTioN iNteRestiNg... bUt... jUz diN hELp... gUesS iT's jUz mE...

wELL... aFtEr mY biRtHdAy iNcidEnt... i rEaLLy hAvE bEcOmE a LiL uNwiLLiNg tO tALk tO mY mUm... gEt iRRitAtEd eAsiLy... sigH... hOpe tHingS wiLl cHAngE... wELL...

iN yOUr dEspAiR n dEEpEsT sOrrOws
wHen u aRe sTandiNg iN tHe miDsT oF pAin's sHaRp aRRowS
u cArrY oN tO fAcE tOmOrroW's FaiLiNg LigHt
iT iS LoVe tHAt wiLL sEE u tHRu tHE nigHt.

wHEn thErE iS dOuBt n fiErCe uNcErtAiNty
wHEn tHEre iS dArknEss aLL aRouNd u cAn'T sEE wHerE tO gO
yOU cArrY oN tO fiNd tHerE iS nO eNd iN sigHt
iT iS fAitH tHAt wiLL sEe u tHRu tHE nigHt.

hE kNows yOUr pAiN
hE wAnts tO Let u kNoW
hE gEntLy hOLds
yOuR pReciOus sOuL
hE LiFts u higH
n iN His lOvE yOu'LL sTAnd
bEcAusE yOU'rE hOLdiNg THE FATHER'S HAND

(C)PLMGS THE FATHER'S HAND

I needed Jesus @ | 5:41:00 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

hMM... tiNk i rEaLLy hAd a gReAt dAy yEstErdAy... wEnt oUt wiTh HiLdA, sEe Fei, gEcK yiNg, etHeL.K n hiM tO cELebRatE mY biRtHdAy... tHey aLL bLuFF mE iN tHE mOrNing... wHEn i wAs oN mY wAY tO oRcHArd... hE mEssagEd mE n sAid hE cOuLd nOT go cOz hE gOt sOmetHing iMpt tO aTTeNd tO... sO i jUz wEnt oN wiTH thE rEst tO eAt... wE wEnT tO pAstA mAniA tO eAt n wE wErE tHe fiRsT cUstOmeRs... wE fOuNd a sEaT, sAt dOwn n i wAs fORcEd tO gO oRdEr tHe fOOd... ALONE... sO sAd... aFtEr oRdEriNg tHe fOOd... i rEtuRned tO tHE tAbLe n aLL oF tHe oTheR 4 wEre bEhaViNg wEiRdLy... i aSkeD thEm wAt thEy wAnteD to dRiNk thEn wEnt tO thE cAsHieR tO oRdEr agAin... tHe sEcOnd tiMe i rEtuRneD tO thE tAbLe, etHeL sAid sHe hAd tO gO tO thE toiLet... mY pHoNe rang n oNe oF mY fRen cALLeD to aSk foR sOme eNroLmeNt pArAdE cOmmAnd... thE pHoNeLiNe gOT cUt oFF.. i pUt dOwn thE pHoNe... bEfOrE i KneW... HiLdA wAs bEHiNd mE n sHe cOvErEd mY eYes... i sTrugglEd... LyNN cALLed agAiN... sHe tOOk sOme tiMe to tAke dOwn tHe cOmmAnDs thAT thE rEst wErE mAkiNg sO mUcH nOisE... i hAd tO tELL hEr i'LL caLL hEr bAcK LatEr... hiLdA Let gO of hEr hAnd... i sAw a birThdAy cAke... a niCe pUny fRuiT cAkE... thEy AskEd mE to LoOk bEHiNd n i rEALizEd hE wAs mAdE tO gO bUy tHE cAke n mEET uS aT wHErE wE'rE eAtiNg... wELL... a pLeAsAnT sUrpRisE i wOuLd sAy... THANK YOU... n wE wEnt tO tAke nEopRiNTs LatEr... wAs qUitE fUnnY... hAhAH... goT oNe cAndiD sHot... wE wERe nOt veH fAmiLiar wiTh hOw iT woRks aT fiRst... hEhE... bUt thE rEsT wAs Ok...

wELL... gLad tO hAve a gReat buNcH oF fRens LikE tHEm... tHAnk yoU... rEaLLy tHAnK God fOR uR pResEncE iN mY LifE... i hAd tHe mOst eNjOyaBLe birThdAy cELebRatiOn oF mY LiFe...

I needed Jesus @ | 7:55:00 PM

Thursday, July 15, 2004

hAiz... cHiNese LessOn nOw.. sCHooL iS rEaLLy kiLLiNg mE!!! hAi... hAve bEEn sUpEr bUsy wiTh aLL tHE sTUpiD LoAd oF hOmEwoRk... aRgH... hMM... mY biG dAy cOmiN uP... bUt... dUn tiNk it'LL bE aNY gREat eNjOyaBLe dAy fOR mE... TtHings jUz aRen'T gOinG rigHT eSpeCiaLLy aT hOme... tHEre jUz sOmetHInG wRong wiTh mY pAreNts' bEhAvioUr... mY mUm... i dUn uNdeRstAnd wHAt sHe's uP tO... sHE jUZ doEsn'T bOtHer whEtHEr i eXiSt... iT's As tHoUgh i'M tRanspAreNt to HEr... i tRy vEh hArd to tALk tO hEr... bUT sHE jUz doEsn'T eveN bOThEr tO anSwEr mE... n mY iRRitAtInG fAthEr... eXcUsE mE... dO i LooK LikE a sLavE? eSpEcIaLLy fOr mY yOunGEst bRotHEr? i hAve mY stUdiEs tO wOrrY aBouT! u eXpEct mE tO bE sO fRe tO iRoN aLL tHE stUpiD cLotHEs tHat u pEopLE wEAr??? n eVEn iF u wAnt mE tO hELp iRoN mY bRotHEr's uNifORm, cAN hE pLEasE sAY iT iN a niCer mAnNEr? n i aM nOT a giRL tHAt tALks tO eVErY siNgLE gUy tHAt i kNow tiLL Late nighT! i jUZ nEEdED tO asK mY tUToR quEstiONs tHAt i wASn't sUr e oF BECAUSE i hAve a mAtHs tEst tHe nExT dAy!! iS tHerE ANytHInG wRonG wiTh tHAt??? aRgH... i rEALLy cAnNoT taKe tHEsE nOnSeNsE aNymORe... GIVE ME A BREAK!!!

wAteVA iT iS... mY oNLy wisH nOw... LoRD... tAkE mE tO uR pLAce... tAke mE tO uR hOUsE oF wORsHip... i wAnA gO tO cHUrCh... i wAna bE uR cHiLD!!! HELP! i'LL pRaY n i'LL sTaY fAiThfUL... fOr i kNoW i'M hOLdiNg mY FAthEr'S hAnD

I needed Jesus @ | 12:11:00 PM