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Sunday, December 25, 2005

woohoo!!! it's Christmas!!! hee.. this year's Christmas, guess i'll be spending most of the time at home(without my mum at home).. hmm.. she said she's going out at night.. so.. i guess.. it'll be the com or the tv that's gonna b my company.. haha.. yep.. but i'm glad enough that she's allowed me to go for church service:) woohoo!! haha.. yeah.. praise God!! :)

yep yep.. erm.. back track.. haha.. went to school for the camp again on friday.. had fun with the kids.. but during the captain's ball match, my dear ega was sad.. awwwww... haha.. cos he so young dunno how to play, then the older ones din throw the ball to him.. haha.. then he walked out of court.. n he even refused to talk to me!! but i couldn't b with him all the time cos i had to join the group 5 team in competing with the other group in captain's ball.. so, asked andy to help me take care of him.. yeah.. sigh.. but he got ok after some time.. haha.. n the cute happy ega was back!! yeah.. n we came in second place in the LEO category.. teh kids lost the match. but still so proud of them:) hee.. i brought the cookies for them, n gave it to them during dinner.. they finished it fast man.. haha.. make me feel good!! haha.. yep yep.. then i rushed off at 645 to meet elvin at bedok.. headed for bryan's party:) haha.. yeah.. had fun eating there.. haha.. n disturbing my dear brother too!! it realli thrills me to make him speechless(cos it seldom happens) wahahaha.. finally have the chance.. woohoo!! haha.. yep yep.. then left at bout 1020.. elizabeth fetched me home.. so nice!! :) hee.. yep..

then today.. brought my siblings out to watch movie with the church pple.. haha.. watched chronicles of narnia.. it was good!! haha.. must catch it!! haha.. yeah.. tehn after the movie, we went for dinner.. me n my siblings ordered fish n chips.. it was such a BIG plate!! crap.. super full.. i couldn't finish la.. haha... then made jason n arvind help to finish.. lols... haha.. then after that, we walked down to orchard.. yep.. then we walked to OG.. then to heeren.. yeah.. then slacked there for some time.. then took photos on the way to heeren.. then after that, left with my siblings, joel, eileen n jerome.. at bout 845.. then yeah.. came home le.. but.. left house again at 1020.. headed for serangoon.. to meet my mum n aunt for supper i guess.. haha.. at auntie elsie's coffeeshop.. haha.. ate alot la.. crap.. haha.. yep.. n now, i'm waiting for my bedsheet to be done in the washing machine.. hopefully soon so i wun wake up layte tomolo.. lols.. :)

I needed Jesus @ | 1:19:00 AM

Friday, December 23, 2005

hmm.. today.. went to school.. sigh.. super tired la.. slept late last night then woke up at 710 this morning.. haha.. yup yup.. like zombie la.. haha.. aniwae.. quite irritated with the committee.. cos they ask us to report at 8 n made us wait till 9 b4 they started to brief us.. crap.. waste my time.. tomolo i 845 then reach.. dun care.. haha.. yep.. we got into our groups n went ot pick up our little kids.. i got a boy(chose or rather.. hee) called Ega.. a mixed chinese-malay by.. CUTE!! six year old onli.. haha.. then ya lo.. had a long but kinda enjoyable day:) yep.. tiring though.. but Ega kept me alive.. haha.. yup yup.. :) I LOVE EGA!! :) wahaha.. oops.. (guess mani pple gonna b jealous of hiM!! haha.. talking rubbish here..)

oh well.. mum came back, talked to me nicely.. but asked me things like why din u take the intiative to put the clothes in the washing machine.. then i'm like it's like wat time le? n u nv ask me to.. i dun usualli do things out of the norm u noe.. then i was quite pissed.. tehn she asked me how come my cookies looked a little flat.. then i'm like.. they wana turn out like that wat can i do rite? then she exploded.. she started scolding me lo.. i felt bad la.. but.. well i feel i'm not enitrely to blame.. dunno la.. tired of such things..

yep yep.. aniwae.. i tink it's time to sleep soon.. haha.. if not i'll scare the kids tomolo.. with my panda look.. haha.. hees.. yeah.. time to sleep.. oh ya.. was baking cookies jus now.. n the turn out was much better than the previous ones.. so i guess, sugar goes before the flour! n that's a must! haha.. yes.. bringing some for the kids tomolo.. haha.. ok! sleep time if not i'm gonna realli regret tomolo.. hee..

I needed Jesus @ | 12:02:00 AM

Thursday, December 22, 2005

haha.. today is wednesday.. sigh.. tomolo gotta go school.. at 7am!!! haven woken up at this kinda time for like a month plus.. sigh.. yeah yeah.. haha.. aniwae back track a little.. haha.. let's talk bout sunday.. hmm.. went for budak pantai concert.. with ron, cheryl, elvin, jimmy n jael.. :) haha.. yep// it was good.. except that the songs they sang.. heard most of them when i first saw them at ymca.. yep.. but they were good aniway.. ya.. but the thing was that cheryl had to work in the morning.. then tink when she agreed to go, she din expect this la.. so that day, she had to rush down.. then she was late.. n i called her la.. then she sounded pissed.. then i was telling her that she might have to wait till intermission if she's late.. well.. then she somewhat explodd.. she said that if that's so, she might as well dun go le.. wa.. i shocked.. then i asked elvin.. then told her jus come n we left her ticket with the person downstairs.. then she managed to get in lo.. ya. then watched the concert then ya lo.. left after that.. yep.. then i headed for my grandma's place but in the end, i met my mum n siblings at ikea.. yep... then after that went home lo.. yeah..

monday n tuesday.. went to my aunt's place..ahah.. yup.. rotted there lo. .ya. n today, went out with ym aunt lo.. haha.. me n my siblings, my aunt n my cousins.. yeah.. went to kallang to look at my aunt's furniture.. then went to furniture mall.. then we went j8 to shop.. my cousins n siblings bought shoes.. haha.. yeah.. i wanted to buy shoes too.. but the shoe that i wanted, that colour sold out.. dun haf my shoe size le.. sad.. 49 bucks onli leh.. it was a 103bucks shoe.. :( well.. not fated ba.. sian.. then after that went on to compass point cos we couldn't fins the game arcade in j8.. sigh.. picked my mum up from ang mo kio mrt then headed ther.. after the kids finished playing, we went home n cele brother's birthday.. n after that, we cuo1 tang1 yuan2.. haha.. yeah! got tang yuan to eat tomolo!! :) haha.. ok.. i've been chased by mani pple to sleep le.. haha.. goodnights..

I needed Jesus @ | 12:32:00 AM

Saturday, December 17, 2005

woohoo!! haha super tired now.. tink i sleeping soon.. hee.. aniwae.. today went for Christmas party at Charis.. brought my siblings along.. haha.. left my place at bout 2.. then brought my brother to the hairdresser.. my mum was with us.. yuup.. then my sis n mum had lunch at a coffeeshop near by.. then waited for my brother to be done.. n he came out n ate at bout 2 plus.. then waited for him to eat.. he finished eating at bout 245.. then cabbed with my mum to City Plaza cos i wanted scotch tape.. then couldn't find it in city plaza.. so went to tanjong katong complex to get it.. n manged to get it from shop n safe.. (but i left it in church after use! lol).. yup.. then my mum walked with us all the way.. BUT luckily the bus that she has to take is not on the way to church so she left first.. PHEW.. yup yup.. then we went for the party.. then had great fun.. my siblings.. shy la.. but my sister is worse.. she realli doesn't talk to pple. haha.. my brother more enthu.. haha.. still dare to volunteer to answer question.. haha.. ya.. basically, we all had fun:) haha.. i gave out my christmas presents during dinner.. tehn after everything, helped clear the place.. sadly, i found 3 unwanted presents.. and one of them belonged to ting an, the other to shirley.. n i found out some days ago that the other belongs to jason fung.. sad... :( oh well then went home after that.. yep yep.. realli glad that i was able to join them in the party.. :) hah..

I needed Jesus @ | 11:29:00 PM

Monday, December 12, 2005

sig.. got woken up by a call from my sec school GB teacher.. haha.. i helped to sell some stuff to raise funds so she asked me how mani i sold then she has to collect the money n the remainder from me.. haha.. yup.. watned to go back to sleep.. but.. couldn't le.. so. got up n wached up.. haha.. talking bout helping to raise funds.. haha.. actualli sold onli 5.. but i feel so bad.. cos the other time, fortnight onli raised quite little.. so i bought another 5 myself so i told miss ho i sold 10.. sigh.. that's the best i can give.. hmm.. if not would have bought all twenty lo.. sad.. haha..

anyway.. yeah.. let's se. i had cereal with chocolate milk for breakfast.. hees.. haha.. ran out of fresh milk.. so use chocolate milk lo.. haha.. not bad leh.. lols.. haha.. oh ya!! muz promote meiji's chocolate milk!! NICE!! haha.. even clarissa says it's nice(rite mum?) haha.. yup.. so go try it!! hees.. yup yup.. hees..

aniwae.. i was jus helping my brother to like check wat school he got transfered to.. been praying for him to get into monfort.. but.. he got posted to xinmin primary instead.. :( sigh.. i tot he would have the chance to get to hear the gospel.. but.. sigh.. well.. so i tink.. jus leave it to God ba.. i'll keep praying though:) haha.. yup yup.. now chatting.. was playing guitar jus now.. fingers pain.. but i'm not gonna give up on practising yet!! hees.. hmm.. yup yup.. oh ya.. and.. i am quite glad that i am somewhat talking to him now.. can talk to him a a fren and not think of anithing else.. yep.. er.. ya.. juz hope it gets better ba.. like after the long avoiding period.. the period of fear of getting close again.. sigh.. yep.. well.. thank you Lord for taking care of my life:)

I needed Jesus @ | 12:50:00 PM

hmms.. saturday comes first.. hees.. was at home.. started watching Full House vcd.. NICE!! haha.. then ya lo.. waited till my aunt come.. sigh.. then rushed down to church n reached at 6+.. sigh.. passed the cheese cake to clarissa who looked at it like a kid who was given his favourite toy.. haha.. and she shared it with the others.. haha.. they finished it.. haha.. then helped with the deco of the hall.. :) hees.. ya.. helped to cut.. paste testimonials on the panels.. then pasted stars.. haha.. after taht.. helped shirley to sweep the floor too.. haha.but the dustpan so lousy one.. haha.. cannot collect the dirt n stuff.. hahaha.. ya lo.. then after that.. went to join nicole, clar n arvind they all.. we played guitar n sang.. so fun!! haha.. then the others guys came back from their soccer.. then sam joined us.. haha.. then we sang.. soo chuan asked us to finish our last song and go liao.. ya.. then went for dinner after that.. and rused off after that cos since i got to go out, i dun wana like lose trust adn stuff.. so rushed home.. yup yup... :) realli glad i could go to church.. FUN!! i realli am like addicted to church.. to God.. i wan more and more each time i get more(tink quite confusing).. haha.. but my point is.. i wana grow closer to the Lord:) God, i dun wana lose u animore.. i wan to b close to u! :) help me with my walk with u! :)

yup yup.. then today.. went down to church in the afternoon.. hees.. went to get my new guitar!! and also pass some deco materials to soo chuan so they can use it:) haha.. jus wana b of some help cos i dun realli go church n i tink i like not helpin much anywhere.. sigh.. well.. yep.. i reached church at bout 1+.. then sat in the hal.. but desmond saw me.. then sat down n talked n he told me the service wun end so soon cos pastor david is there.. so.. i decided to go downt o yong kang's place to collect my file since he said that his brother is at home..ya.. so i rushed down to bedok.. then waited at the bus stop for some time.. then his brother din come down.. then i got so pissed.. when the next bus cam, i boarded.. then at the moment when i boarded the bus, he told me his brother not at home liao.. wa.. i was like.. CRAP!! wat the.. he playing games with me issit.. irritating.. then i went back to church lo.. then was like rushing.. packed my stuff, took my guitar.. then desmond ask me to try out first.. so i jus strummed a few chords then packed up.. hah.. then jayson yong ask me wheter he can see my guitar.. then let him see.. then shirley, soo chuan and some others came to see also.. then we saw a white sticker that says $250.. i was like??!!! crap.. so ex.. then i was.. ya.. haha.. then they were like "u rushing off rite? hurry go then" so i ran out.. haha.. on the way msged des.. then he kept reassuring me it's forty bucks onli.. so.. i gave in then.. sigh.. ya..

then headed for grandma's house.. haha.. no one else was there yet.. onli me, grandma n aunt.. yup yup.. then.. i went into the room to play the guitar.. it was GGGRRREEAATTTT!! haha.. love it! :) hees.. yup.. then helped grandma to cook rice.. while she was cleaning up her house.. haha.. yep.. then mum came with my siblings.. then we watched vcd.. haha.. grandma joined us!! so i say.. Full House is NICE!! haha yep.. then left grandma's place at bout 8.. went home to take the textbooks that my siblings dun wan animore.. brought it to some palce in marine parade.. then went to buy waffle(yummy!) hees.. then came home.. watched Full House again.. n me.. multi tasking.. chatting with shaggy, clarissa, elvin, tim, srvind, cheryl, jayne n gecky:) haha.. but all of them offline liao:( left me alone:( haha.. so i guess, it's time for bed.. hees.. sleep time! :)

I needed Jesus @ | 12:16:00 AM

Thursday, December 08, 2005

wohoo!!! i'm back from camp:) haha.. yup yup.. realli had a good time at church youth retreat.. :) haha.. yeah.. i realli am so glad that i made it to the retreat if not i would have missed out on something that is so so so wonderful!! haha.. yup.. i realli learnt alot of things about God n also about myself through the sessions, praise and worship and even mixing around with the people:) haha.. and i thank God for putting me in a group wiht people i'm not very familiar with..
here's my group!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>:)
but we're short of jaime, joshua and ian.. haha.. yup yup.. hmm.. i tink i was gonna talk..haha..

aniwae.. yeah.. this is my dearest group!! we had great times(n bad times too) but i still love them so much! yeah.. haha..

yup.. basically, i realli learnt mani things from the 2d1n retreat.. in the sessions, i learnt that, Christians we may be, but that doesn't make us perfect.. we still have flaws in our character.. we still sin! and so one very important thing is to REPENT!! big word huH!! yeah.. repent and commit urself to God.. ask God to help you with ur sins in lives.. cos God is the King of kings and the Lord of lords.. nothing is impossible with HIM!! :) yup yup.. also, i learnt so much more about myself as i look at the bondages that is obstructing my close relationship with the Lord.. yeah.. then i realli had a wonderful experience, experiencing the Holy Spirit.. so intensive for once.. although i was alreadi tired, but i did not want to stop! realli.. juz wanted more n more and more.. yeah.. haha.. i was so high even after that:) haha. . ya.. tehn that night.. hang around with ethel in the hall... they were playing taiti.. i was juz watching.. not very interested in playing..haha.. yup.. then went ot bed at bout 1 plus..

woke up at 645 the next morning.. yup yup.. tired but happy.. haha.. then washed up and did QT.. tehn group discussion.. yup..then prepared breakfast.. my group bought ham, cheese. tomato and bread to make sandwich.. hah.. healthy eh? the other groups had cereal, mashed potato and stuff.. haha.. oh ya.. i bought fruit juice for the group too!! lols.. haha.. and it was session after that.. and in that session, i learnt how to plan.. to plan how to improve my relationship with the Lord.. yup yup.. and also learnt about evangelism:) i aim to bring one person to God by the end of this year.. i wun mention who.. but.. yeah.. i am so ready.. although i noe it will not b easy given such a short time.. but i noe, if it's God's will, nothing is impossible! i will depend on Him.. :) yup yup.. with Him, nothing is impossible and i noe, without God, I AM NOTHING!!:)

yup...and after our sharing.. camp came to a close.. yup yup.. we all left the place.. for me with reluctance cos i realli enjoyed myself with God and also with others:) ya.. but everything has to come to an end aniwae.. yup.. so.. time to return to the real world.. and now.. with a bigger purpose.. to spread the gospel.. :) yup yup.. then a group of us went to J8 for lunch.. yeah.. then we walked around.. haha.. i took neoprints with clarissa n sharlene.. (leaving the guys outside to wait for us).. haha.. yup.. then walked a while more n we left le.. hee.. yup..

i realli realli love to go to church as soon as possible.. i dun wana miss the chance to serve God.. i wana serve Him while i'm still young!! i wana give Him more of my time!! :) God, please soften my mother's heart.. i wana go to church!! please.. thank you Lord.. :)

I needed Jesus @ | 2:53:00 PM

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

wa.. artistic sia??

cutie geckies

cute?er.. acting cute?
haha geck ying in tj uniform!!

hmm.. had an enjoyable day!!

I needed Jesus @ | 5:02:00 PM

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

our cream cheese b4 beating:)
beating.. stirring..
the crust!
the product!! OREO CHEESECAKE!
mirror mirror on the wall...
BEST FRIENDS!!
tink my room's a little too cold for her:)

will put up the rest when i get back from youth retreat:)

I needed Jesus @ | 12:04:00 AM

Monday, December 05, 2005

something happy today! haha geck came to my place today.. haha.. and we made cheesecake.. yup yup.. fun fun fun.. haha.. yeah.. then.. after making cheesecake, we had our lunch and watched pochahontasII.. haha.. nice.. n geck.. haha.. dreaming away.. fantasies.. lols.. haha.. ya then we watched tong xin yuan.. then supposed to have a heart-to-heart talk in my room.. but crazy us ended up taking pics in my room.. with all sorts of funny actions, expressions n looks.. lols.. yup.. realli fun.. and wat i wana sae is.. thanks girl, for keeping that friendship.. realli glad that i din lose u even though we're on our separate ways in some sense.. ahah.. yup.. then walked her to the bus stop.. and she went home..

i dunno wat kind of a mood i am in.. excited? for the camp? yes.. there is this excitement.. it's like my first camp with charis pple:) haha.. and, it's another chance for me to experience God, to learn more things again.. :) that's a good thing.. but.. i dunno.. mayb it's juz me and my moodswing again.. sigh..well.. i dunno..

moodswinging.. sians.. my sis brought in the clean laundry then din fold.. then i got quite pissed cos she nv fold e clothes(which is supposed to be done by her).. oh well, i was the one in charge of folding the clothes last time.. now it's her.. and in the past, if i din fold, i'll get a thrashing from my mum la.. and now? she doesn't fold? nothing happens.. and i'm expected to fold it.. wat crap! i mean like.. of course i get super pissed la.. and i take the basetful of clothes n fold it, while she enjoys her instant noodle with my brother and mum in the kitchen.. after folding, i realised that at the bottom of the basket is some folded clothes(like the past few days').. wa.. she hasn't even been putting the clothes in the cupboard.. then i got even more pissed le.. like.. argh.. different treatment? she seems to b able to get away with everything.. and as the oldest, i get blamed? like even if my brother doesn't do his homework, i get blamed for not checking? oh well.. is that how an eldest child's life should be? i dunno.. sians.. things seem to be getting from bad to worse for me.. n i tend to become down n affected nowadays.. i dunno why... God.. please help me! i realli need to sense ur presence.. ur love.. ur support.. teach me.. wateva i am doing wrong.. i need u to tell me.. please.. speak to me Lord.. :( yes.. reassure me Lord.. especially in the camp.. talk to me.. let me sense ur presence and know u more and more..

I needed Jesus @ | 11:39:00 PM

Sunday, December 04, 2005

hmm.. today.. i learnt quite a handful of things.. the main thing is, was happy and sad that i got my way to church.. haha.. weird ah? happy that i can go to church, to see my frens, fellowship with them, have fun, catch up:) realli fun.. and i learnt lots of things about BGR.. yup yup.. but learning about BGR, somewhat painful leh.. aiya.. dun wana tink le.. oh well.. basically, the most important thing that i learnt.. is that.. in a relationship, both parties must b able to commit(so if u are not ready to, DON'T).. i also learn the three types of love (epros, philos and agape).. n we shouldn't skip the stage of friendship with the opposite sex, and jump into a relationship.. we shouldn't try to "test the water"; getting into a relationship to see if that is the right person for me.. we should gt into a relationship when we noe that person is the one for me:) that's the difference.. yup yup.. and when studying, it isn't a good idea to date cos it will reali drain us as we havw to balance God, school, family, friends and that relationship.. one last thing is, when pple get into BGR, especially within the youth ministry, it does not only affect the two person.. it affects the whole community.. and also, concentration on God might be lost as the pple in the community turn their focus to that two person.. also thinking that sionce they van start a r/s, why can't i? or when pple in the ministry start to pair up, wat happens to those who are not?yeah.. so.. i realli understood why church is against BGR.. especially in the youth stage.. yup.. so somewhat learning to let go.. more willingly..

yeah.. haha.. on the whole. realli glad to go for fellowship today:) haha.. after fellowsihp, talked to shirley.. asked her about some things that i din understnad in the Bible while i was reading through the book of Matthew.. yup.. had so mani questions.. felt bad to hold her back.. haha.. yeah. then after that, helped kenneth and arvin(is that how i spell? dunno hees) to plan some of the games for the youth retreat on tuesay:) so excited.. realli hope i can join them earlier.. sigh.. but more than happy i can go :) haha.. yup yup.. then had bs.. yeah.. then after that went to singapore post with ethel and evonne to have dinner.. ate minced pork noodel.. super full.. lols.. and i saw some MJ choir seniors.. din go over cos i dun tink they recognised me.. hees.. yup yup.. so i guess.. time to sleep now:) haha.. realli tired today.. yeah.. sleeping time:) goodnight

I needed Jesus @ | 12:12:00 AM